one day

CAPS

I KEEP SAYING
I DON'T
[REALLY]
CARE
BUT THEN WHY
DO I HAVE
THIS PAIN
IN MY CHEST
WHEN I THINK
                ABOUT YOU
MY PARENTS
AND HOW I'VE
FORGOTTEN ABOUT
THE
G SHARP
       (ON MY RIGHT HAND)
IN THE MOZART SONG
I NEVER
REMEMBER THE
NAME OF
I AM ANGRY
AND ANGST-RIDDEN
THERE IS
(NO FORM)
TO THIS POEM
I'M SCATTERED
ACROSS THIS PAGE
I'M SCREAMING
I MUST WRITE IN CAPS
OTHERWISE YOU
[WHO'S YOU?]
WON'T HEAR ME
THE DESPERATION
ANTICIPATION
NERVOUSNESS
THAT I'VE BEEN FEELING
IS IT SCHOOL?
IS IT HOME?
IS IT LIFE?
CHECK ANY THAT APPLY:
IF IT'S ANXIETY
  THAT I'M HAVING
SHOULD I CHECK
ALL THREE?
OR WILL YOU
ONLY TELL ME
"IT'S NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT"
"CALM DOWN"
"YOU'RE OVERREACTING"
MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I DON'T
KNOW WHAT X EQUALS
IN THIS MATH SUMMER WORK
(ARE YOU READY?)
[FOR WHAT]
(FOR THE PRESSURE
AND
ANXIETY
SCHOOL INDUCES, OF COURSE)
BREATHE IN
BREATHE OUT
HOW CAN I DO THAT
WHEN MY LUNGS
HAVE BEEN PUNCTURED BY GLASS
I CAN'T BREATHE
IN AND OUT
INHALE
EXHALE
THE QUESTIONS CONTINUE
WHAT COLLEGE ARE YOU GOING TO
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO STUDY
ARE YOU DOING WELL IN SCHOOL
DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND
WHY ARE YOU SO QUIET
(I DON'T KNOW
WHY ARE YOU SO NOSY?)
I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS
AND NO ANSWERS
GOOGLE DOESN'T HAVE ANY EITHER
I'M TIRED
BUT I CAN'T SLEEP
THE SILENCE WAS WELCOMED
BUT IT FEELS EERILY
LOUD TODAY
SO I PUT IN MY HEADPHONES
AND I DROWN EVERYTHING OUT
AND PRETEND I'M NOT DROWNING MYSELF
INHALE
EXHALE