Sweet Lost Love

7

"Nasaan bodyguard mo? Wala?"

Napairap ako sa salubong sa akin ni Margareth. She's talking about Dash. Since he transfer to our school he's always at my back.

I rejected him countless times but he remain persistent. Our relationship is hot and cold— minsan maayos kaming magkaibigan, minsan naman iritable ako sa kanya dahil nag-aasal boyfriend siya kahit hindi naman.

"Stop calling him my bodyguard..." I settle on the seat beside her. It's our salon day pero inaantay pa namin si Ate Emma na may binili saglit sa department store.

"What should I call him then? Potential husband?"

"Margareth!" halos sigaw ko— pinandilatan pa siya ng mga mata. But my crazy bestfriend just laugh at me.

We both order ice coffee. She just annoy me while we wait for Ate Emma. Wala na yatang katapusan ang panunukso niya sa akin tungkol kay Dash.

"But seriously, okay naman si Dash. He's patient and very generous. Spoiled ka nga sa kanya, like how you want it, right?"

I couldn't deny how Dash feed my wants. He shower me with gifts— there's no need for special occasion for him to give me the latest item for a new YSL collection. I am that spoiled to him. But we're just friends, I want nothing but friendship with him. Binibigyan ko rin naman siya ng regalo but not as often as he's giving me.

"If you don't want Dash, it's only right not to accept more gifts na kung wala namang special occasion." With what Margareth said, naisip ko tuloy na umuwi at ikahon lahat ng regalo ni Dash tsaka ibalik. But that would be rude of me.

"I didn't ask for the gifts..." Nakikain ako sa chocolate cake niya— we both have a light appetite, hindi niya rin naman kayang kainin ang isang slice.

"You didn't ask but you willingly received it. Kaya siya asang-asa sa 'yo."

"Wala siyang aasahan."

"Bakit?" taas kilay niyang tanong. "Hesper again?" tumawa siya. "The man is probably enjoying college girls. Sikat kaya siya sa University nila. Hindi na nga makapasok sa inner circle niya sina Ate Red kasi sobrang daming babae raw ang dumidikit sa kanya."

Sumimangot lang ako. Wala pa akong karapatan magselos. He still has about two months of his freedom. He might have forgot about what we talked pero ipapaalala ko talaga sa kanya.

I don't know where to start, tho. Minsan lang siya kung umuwi sa village. I am not sure if he's staying in a condo or with his sister, or maybe on his grandma's— kasi ang alam ko his parents already moved to their plantation in Batanggas. But wherever he is, I'll find him and make him date me.

"And I heard kay Sarah, he's with Sofia again. Mukhang nagkabalikan sila."

"Hindi naman sila."

"How sure are you?"

"I asked Zayn." Tumaas lalo ang kilay niya. I keep contact with Hesper's friends especially with Zayn, usapan lang naman namin siya lang ang hindi ko kakausapin.

"Baka kayo ni Zayn ang magkatuloyan."

I made a disgusted face. Zayn is alright— if I won't be bias I'll say that in their circle he's the most good looking. With his long hair, pierced ear— smoking and drinking habbit, he's the literal baddest of them all. He has a funny personality and a smooth talker, but I will never choose anyone but Hesper.

Hesper's grey personality is what I want. He's a puzzle. He's a taste of everything; sweet, bitter, sour. Perfectly balanced.

"Tita Leonor will like Zayn. There family own motels around the metro. It would pass your mom's standard."