Sometimes, we wish for the world to change, and we hold onto false hopes that end up breaking our hearts, or worse, our souls. So to blow up everything is the best way to set us free, and become a golden version of ourselves and the spirit we are gi...
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Fictional characters representing the man I've loved since being a girl, and myself. Hoping to see him one day on a tour.
Sunshine: I've never written a letter, I feel like it's time to start doing it. I have loved you since I was a child. My heart hasn't set another goal, honestly, it never will. I loved you so much that you don't even have to reciprocate. I feel love to spare. It's overflowed. I am afraid of commitment, afraid of losing everything like my parents. I am afraid of even starting a family. What's more, I don't even want one. But who am I lying to? I want it with you, and only with you. You stepped on my fears. Every time I saw you it was a smile on my face, and every time you didn't look at my direction, it was a small fracture in the heart. How much I have loved you all these years. I have done nothing about it. I know you. I knew you would never do anything because to you, I was always a girl. I am convinced that you thought it would only be a very temporary love. Your surprise when I kissed you revealed it to me. And it's just that I no longer hold the urge. I'm so sorry, and at the same time I'm not. I kissed you in surprise. Without your consent. But I didn't feel any discomfort from you. Forgive me if I'm wrong. You were talking to me so up front, so close. Books are your thing, but I think I can teach you a little more. I didn't know how beautiful it felt to be by your side. And I didn't resist, sorry. I was so wrong by imagining countless times scenes of us kissing, waiting for you to be the first. You weren't the first, but clearly no one had told me that kissing you would feel so pure. It was the most tender kiss for me. I don't know what it would have been like for you. Sorry to run away. It's that I wait too long, I am afraid of having ruined our long friendship. My love is infinite. If you don't reciprocate, or if you think it was completely out of line, I understand. But please just think. I want you to be happy. I want to make you happy. Do not hate me. Right now, I don't know what would become of me without your life in mine. I know you kissed me and if you deny it, I will understand. I would like it to happen again. I want too many things. Above all, you. I love you, Harlow. You are the only ray of sunshine that lights up my heart.
Written on July, 2021. Excerpt from an old story I've forgot to continue. Fictional letter from real feelings towards someone I just dream about from time to time.
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