Forgive & Forget

Chapter 33- Cecelia

So, graduation was last night. Granted, it's only 8th grade graduation, but after this, it's high school. Meaning my days are numbered until college and adult life, which I am utterly unprepared for. It was still kind of sentimental to see all of the people there, as for some, it will have been the last time seeing them.
These past few years have been an especially life-changing experience. It is typical for someone with ADHD/ADD to peak in intelligence over their peers. Ever since I started school, I have always been complimented on this, and I thought that school would always be like this. When I started middle school, I discovered that people were working hard and getting the same grades as I. In the middle of eighth grade, I had to start working to get good grades, which was a frightening experience for me. I had never learned how to study or to concentrate, so I had to get back on medication, which increased my anxiety levels. That made my life hell from then until graduation. It is worth it, though, because it taught me to essentially man up and know that success comes from hard work.
I also learned to expect the unexpected. You are going to fail a test in your best class, so study and work harder. The people who have always been the same will change, so be prepared. The people you love most will leave, so be careful who you trust. The unthinkable will inevitably happen. Everything you know can change in the blink of an eye, so don't blink, I guess.
Middle school was three years, yet it went by in a flash. I am not the same as I was before. I am not the same third grader that would be too extroverted, nor am I the same seventh grader who would be too introverted. I am not the same pudgy, terrified fourth and fifth grader that I was. I am not the same fourth grader who would freak out over getting an A- on their report card. I am not those people anymore.
But, if I am not them, who am I? These people I have been my entire life, and without them, who am I?
I'm still trying to find out.