Forgive & Forget

Chapter 33 - jenna

Wow.
We stopped writing, I guess.
And a lot's changed since then. I'm not friends with incest ian or Atalanta or Emma 1 or Sadie anymore. I haven't talked to my abusive ex in about 6 months. I hardly ever see Cecilia anymore. I'm around 40 days clean.
Things are going okay in high school, just not what I expected. I wish people would write on here again.
My life isn't going great, but it's not terrible.
I guess why I'm writing right now is because something's on my mind and I can't stop thinking about it.
I haven't talked to jack in about 6 months. That's great, right? And I haven't thought much of him since then. But recently he's been talking to my friends, and recently I've been seeing him around 4 times a day at school. But most importantly are the nightmares. Lately, I've been having dreams involving him and it's scaring me. He scares me.
I don't know what to do. Nothing is working. I can't talk to my friends about it because I feel like I'm annoying them. And I don't want to lose any more friends.
Last night, Erin and Emma 2 slept over, and I couldn't even sleep because I kept thinking about him. I'm so scared that I might talk to him or text him. I'm so scared that something's going to happen. I don't know what to do.
Maybe this will help, maybe not.