Ashes in the Heart (Editing)

Ghosts: The First Encounter

— ¿Do you love me?

Asked the black-haired girl looking at me with big eyes and making them more tender than normal, I could buy the world just with that look. Her hair covered part of her face and she leaned her head on one of her arms, the white sheets of the bed matched her skin and the sunlight made her gaze more intense. She sensually bit her thumb while being a few centimeters from me making an obvious game of manipulation.

—¿Why does it matter so much?

I asked calmly and a slight smile, staring at her while she contemplated her beauty, we were naked and her leg wrapped around my torso while we just stayed there all day to look at each other like fools.

— ¿Do you love me?

She asked again with a pleading puppy tone giving a light kiss to my lips, she was very irritating and annoying but I couldn't contain myself in her presence. Loran could exactly be described as the mix of a spoiled little girl and a grown woman with serious personality problems and existential crises, but at the same time with a touch of sensuality and desire. She was a very hot girl and sex was the best thing in common that we could share, she didn't care about the time, the place or who was there, she was insatiable and even more so when she was under the influence of fairy dust.

She gave herself passionately, madly, she could be free when having sex, as if her life really revolved around that. She was not one of those girls that you can present to your parents with a long-term life project, but the one that you simply cannot imprison, she had no ties, no chains, she simply lived her life according to how she woke up every day.

After our first meetings I used to bring her flowers and visit her grandmother who always asked my name how often she saw me, but flowers were not her thing, much fewer formal visits, so we would secretly see each other at my parents' house. to have our moments of love affair.

Of course, she liked risk and danger and many times when my parents arrived without warning we hid in the closets or in the bathroom without making noise until they left, when I was inspired, I could lower my pants while we listened to the nearby voices of my friends. parents and gave me oral sex until I moaned, the game was simple for her, if they discovered us everything was over. For our luck they never got to discover us, but how I liked those moments of a lot of adrenaline.

She never liked that I took her home or that I accompanied her to places other than my parents' house and she had never bought a cell phone because she did not want to waste her time giving explanations, but much beyond her free way of living life she was someone beautifully unbalanced, sometimes broken with no desire to continue living and in others radiant and alive like the sun.

Our romance was very real but fleeting at the same time and although it felt good to just be friends it frustrated me when she disappeared for days without giving an explanation. I couldn't find her, speak or do anything other than wait until she found me, perhaps the thread that linked her to my life was short and weak, one of those that with any simple wind would wear out until it broke, but the thread that linked me to her he became stronger and more resistant to all his defects, his addictions and his problems...

I felt empty when she left home without saying goodbye and without knowing when I would see her again and I didn't know if this was something normal because I didn't usually have many girls after me, I had known everything about a relationship with her and although I didn't want to seem toxic or harassing because it was not like that, I just wanted to make her feel that my life depended a lot on her and every minute with her was very important to me.

She used to go visit her grandmother when she disappeared, since many times the old woman didn't even have anything to eat, so she bought a few things to fill her pantry, just like many times I sat in my car outside her house to wait for hours until to come, but that did not happen. I wanted her fervently, I wanted her to be by my side to share more moments like eating together, sleeping together, for her to touch me or for her to kiss me insatiably. To feel her body on top of mine, feel her warmth, hear her laugh and dance like crazy on top of my bed like we always did.