"Sometimes, you just have to fall to fly."
y/n's mother died after giving birth to her, and her father at 14. Now a year has passed since her father's death, and she just can't take it anymore. She stood on her balcony railing in an attempt to take...
song for this chapter: Ready Steady by Vivid BAD SQUAD
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This chapter is dedicated to Pomu Rainpuff, Kyo Kaneko, and Selen Tatsuki as tribute to their respective 2 graduations and 1 termination on January 20, 2024, February 17, 2024, and February 5, 2024. We'll all miss our Niji EN livers.
Sink the yacht ✊🏻✊🏻
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| 1st pov | (The day of the show in America, backstage)
I've been on a stage before, but this was different. The cheers of the crowd rang through my ears and bounced around in my head, echoing it tenfold. I could barely hear An talking to me until she waved her hand in my face.
"y/n? Helloo?" She sang into my face, the bracelets on her wrists clicking together just enough for me to hear above the crowd. "We're on in a few minutes. After this group is done, we're up."
I felt my fingers grip onto my water bottle tighter, my nails scratch the surface of it softly. Already? We had waited so long for this moment, so eager to perform, but now that we're here... why do I want to back down?
Why do I feel like I never deserved this attention? I think I know the answer.
Because I never really did.
I bought my way into VBS. I don't belong here. They made it with pure talent and resolve, I'm just here. I don't even know what RAD WEEKEND felt like. I don't know the thrill of the show, how to get the crowd going. I don't know what makes my heartbeat ring in my ears.
I don't know what I'm doing here. I don't know why I haven't left yet. Why I stayed for dress rehearsal, why I stayed to warm up my voice, why I stayed to let my body relax. I don't know why I ever thought I was on the same calibre as the rest of VBS. They were all so talented, so determined to pass this event that Akito even said that he would give up everything just to be better than RAD WEEKEND.
But what do I have to give...? Nothing. I just joined because they thought I was good. There was nothing more to it. There was nothing more to me.
"I can't do this, An."
Her jaw dropped open, and her amber eyes looked concerned. "Are you okay? Are you sick? We can't do this without you, y/n!" She placed her hand on my shoulder and looked comfortingly into my eyes.
"I don't deserve to be here. You guys, along with everyone else here, worked hard to get here. Heck, even the audience worked harder than me to be here! I just tagged along. I'm not like you guys."
An looked into my eyes with a somber expression. "I know it may seem like that sometimes as a late member, but you deserve to be here as much as we do. You worked as hard as we did, y/n."
