Blood of The Samoan (Sequel to The Samoan) (Reuploaded)

New Girl

"You can open your eyes now, Evanna."

And then I was back in that therapist room. I did as Dr. Patton had said. I envisioned what could have happened if I had listened to Caroline so many years ago. My mind thought every possible outcome but the one I kept seeing was Caroline dying over and over again. I had been through this several times. The last one I just envisioned was me getting married and Caroline dying on the way to my wedding. Every single scenario ended with Caroline dying and me being with Joe again.

"I have thought of every possibility. Joe getting in a car crash. Joe moving across the globe. Me getting married. But it is always the same. I ways end up with Joe and Caroline always dies. Why won't my brain let me think of a scenario where I get to keep them both?"

"Because it doesn't exist. You keep trying to make scenarios in your head about keeping them both with you. You keep looking into your past and trying to change things. You try to move things around, say different things, do things differently. But no matter how hard you try to change it, it always ends up the same. It is your heart telling you that you were always meant to be with Joe and Caroline was always meant to move on. Your head is giving you nightmares and blaming you for things because in your head, you think things could have been different. We all do that. We think about what could have been, what we could have done differently but sometimes, things aren't meant to be changed. There are things in our past that we will regret but it is those things that make us stronger, make us who we are. We make mistakes but we learn from them. You keep trying to find ways to change the past when you should be seeing what you have learned from your past. You may regret letting your love for Joe come between you and Caroline but it is that love for Caroline has made you stronger. You have taken risks you never would have thought you could. You protect the people you love instead of pushing them away. You're learning. You keep blaming yourself for something that was never your fault to begin with and in your heart, you know that is true. Your heart keeps trying to tell you that you should move on with your life but you are holding yourself back. You have to let it go. What happened to Caroline was a tragedy. But the miracle from all of this is that you are finally happy. You have gotten everything you could have ever wanted. Don't let your head keep your from your dreams, Evanna. Listen to what heart is telling you."

"It is telling me that what happened to Caroline, happened. And there is no way that I can go and change the past. Everything will always end the same way, no matter what I do. I don't have to forget her but I can't let my pity and blame keep me from what is important."

"And what is important to you?"

"My family."

She smiled. "I think that we are done for today."

"Ok, thank you."

She nodded and I walked out of that office for once feeling the weight of Caroline's death being lifted off of my shoulders.

"And she was so nice, Joe. She was so incredible."

I could see Joe cracking a smile.

"What? Why are you smiling like that?"

"Nothing. I just haven't seen you this happy in a long while. It's good."

"Go ahead."

"What?"

"Say it. Come on. I know you want to."

"I told you therapy was good for you. I was right."

"Good, now you can use that to boost your ego every so often."

He laughed and pulled into the parking lot of Carol's school. We went inside and went to pick up Carol.

"Joe Anoa'i?"

We both turned around to see a woman, not much younger than us, in a Roman Reigns t shirt. She had platinum blonde hair that you could tell was not her original hair color and dark blue eyes. She was pretty. I would give her that.

"Yes, hi. You a fan?"

"Yes, I am. My name is GiGi but that isn't why I am talking to you. I actually just moved here with my son, Ethan. We own the gym down the street from yours."

"Right. Fitness Central. I know you. Welcome to Ohio. Are you liking it here?"

"Very much."

She touched his arm and laughed. I had been having such a good day and now I was starting to get a little angry. Keep it together, Evanna. She finally saw me next to Joe.

"Oh, hi. Are you one of Joe's friends?"

I stepped in front of Joe, resulting in her having to remove her hand from Joe's arm. I put on a fake smile and stuck out my hand.

"I'm his wife. Evanna."

She shook my hand and returned a forced smile. "Pleasure to meet you."

"The feeling is mutual."

She let go of my hand as a little boy came running up to her.

"Mommy!"

"Well, hey there, sweetheart. You ready to go?" She asked him.

He nodded and she took his hand.

"See you around, Joe. Nice meeting you, Eva."

"It's Evanna."

"Right, right. See you."

She walked out of the school building and I was still filled with anger. I turned to Joe to see him grinning from ear to ear.

"What?"

"I have never seen you so jealous before."

"I wasn't jealous, Joe. I just didn't like that she was clearly flirting with you in front of me. And if she is a fan, which it seems like she is, she should know that you're married since you said it on tv many times. And then she dismisses me completely."

I was so furious. Joe was still smiling and pulled me towards him.

"It is honestly kind of hot when you are jealous like this."

I rolled my eyes. "I'm not jealous. I just don't like it when women are flirting with my husband is all."

"You don't have to worry. I have no interest in her."

He kissed me and then picked up Carol in his arms as she ran towards him. I knew I had nothing to worry about. But I still couldn't shake the feeling of anger as I thought about that woman.