{𝙼𝚢 𝚂𝚞𝚗 - 𝙼𝙸𝙽𝚂𝚄𝙽𝙶}

13: Boyfriends?

[Jisung]

"And, um.. I was just wondering if maybe you'd wanna.. become official?"

My lips parted, forming a loose 'o'.

I hadn't expected Jihoon to confess so soon, but I guess he liked me better than I thought.

I blinked rapidly, trying to figure out how to turn him down easy, but he was so sweet and I really wanted to like him.

Maybe if I gave a relationship with him a shot, I might start to feel things and forget about..

Well, who the other guy was wasn't important, that wouldn't happen anyway.

I smiled softly at Jihoon, taking his hands into mine. "Are you sure you really want to? Because I know you said that you haven't been in a proper relationship before, and.. I don't wanna be like, a bad first."

That was true, I really didn't want to hurt him, which was why I was kind of hesitant to agree and try it out.

But then again, it would be amazing if it ended up working out.

He was one of the kindest people I'd met, he had always been respectful of my boundaries and me having my own life, and to top it off he was really pretty.

Even having sex with him had been different to most of my past partners, because he was so soft and gentle with his touches which brought me a new kind of euphoric experience than going hard had.

Jihoon could be the dream, if it turned out well.

The only problem was the fact that I didn't have feelings for him at the moment, but I was worried he might not want to wait for me if I said didn't want to date him right now.

And I'd understand, if I told him and we weren't on the same page I would respect his decision to not keep being with me.

But I couldn't manage to tell him the truth, because what I imagined could be was too good to let go of.

"Yes, I'm sure. I really like you, Jisung-hyung. And I trust you, you've been really good to me so far and.. I believe you're a good person. I feel like we match really well, and.. I might be hurrying the relationship forward too fast by confessing, but.. I really like you. Of course it's okay if you think it's too early, but.. I want you to know how I feel, at least."

I was a bit relieved as he said it was okay if I felt like we were moving too quickly, because I did think I needed a little more time.

But then again, he seemed so excited about being boyfriends, so maybe it wouldn't hurt just going for it immediately?

What if his feelings would change over time and I missed out on my only opportunity to date him?

So I took a deep breath, deciding to be bold and go for it.

"I like you too, Jihoon, and I also think we match well. There's just something about you that makes me want to dive into a relationship, because.. you make me feel safe. You're such a kind person and you always respect me and treat me nicely, and that's why I won't hesitate with my answer."

He smiled at me, hopeful round eyes scanning my face to make sure my expression matched my words.

I smiled back, and he seemed to light up.

Maybe I would regret this choice later, but in the moment, it felt right.

"Yes, let's become official. I wanna be your boyfriend."

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[Changbin]

"Cheers to our third official date!" I grinned, raising my glass of champagne up to tap it against Yongtae's.