Creation Of Cremations - Mumscarian Superhero AU

Chapter 9 - Bdubs

Scar was realising that feelings were a strange emotion.

He definitely had feelings for CuteGuy. The hopeless romantic had fallen for his crime fighting partner the minute they had met. What's not to love? CuteGuy was effortlessly handsome. Not just that, he was witty and charismatic. Most importantly, he was kind. Scar knew CuteGuy's sarcastic humour was a coping strategy rather than intended malice. Deep down under those feathers was someone who genuinely cared for the city, just as Scar did.

Scar wasn't so sure about Mumbo. He's been known to date around, if someone asks him out he's gonna take his chance. But more than often these relationships were short lived. There'd be a day or two of adrenaline before seriously talking things out and realising that things just weren't going to work. Ren had become self conscious and insisted he should take time on himself. Scott didn't realise how tall Scar was initially. Joel wanted to try Scar out to see how he and Lizzie would work in an open relationship, but Joel didn't take it very well. BigB acknowledged to Scar that their date was more of a friend's outing than anything. And Mumbo...well Mumbo had come crashing down.

But Scar did find it harder to get over Mumbo than others. Perhaps that was due to the reason why they didn't continue their relationship.

Until yesterday, Scar had thoroughly blamed himself for Mumbo's panic attack. Part of him still did. The part he couldn't find the words to explain was why he kissed Mumbo. Sure, part of it was adrenaline. Scar wouldn't have kissed anyone standing next to him if he wasn't feeling a bit lightheaded from the shooter threat. But would he have kissed anyone if it hadn't been Mumbo? It wasn't like he and Mumbo went at it as passionately as they had done previously, now that was acting on adrenaline. The kiss they had shared in the cupboard was...devoid of passion. Not that it was necessarily a bad thing, after all they had agreed it was kissing for the sake of kissing.

But not all feelings are the same, surely? Scar had feelings towards Ren, but they were completely platonic. Ren was just one of Scars closest friends. Then he had strong feelings towards Jellie, as a parental figure. And he also had very very strong feelings towards Xisuma and none of them were positive ones. Perhaps his feelings for Mumbo weren't romantic? Or part of him felt too guilty to admit his romantic feelings for Mumbo. It felt like betraying CuteGuy. Afterall, CuteGuy was supposed to be his everything!

But was it even real? The more Scar thought about it, the more Scar realised how parasocial his relationship with CuteGuy was. They had barely spoken to each other, not even outside of hero work. CuteGuy had always insisted that Scar cannot tell anyone about his feelings in case it was used against him. Scar understood CuteGuy's intentions but couldn't help wondering if he had just fallen in love with an idealised version of CuteGuy. This is one of the many reasons Scar wished he knew CuteGuy's identity.

So now the question became: CuteGuy or Mumbo?

Scar still wasn't 100% willing to accept that he may still have feelings for Mumbo, nor was he 100% willing to accept that his feelings for CuteGuy may not be healthy. Why does he have to be like this? Why can't he just pick one and move on?

Wait.

Scar grabbed his phone, typing at the speed of light.

>Scar: grian<

>Scar: gfian<

>Scar: *grian, sorry<

>Scar: i have a question<

Scar waited anxiously for Grian's response, phone shaking in his hands.

>Grian: You ok?<

Scar sighed in relief, typing out his question.