Second Chance

30

On the way back to the complex the conversation wasn't much cause I was still thinking about what took place back in the Straykids kitchen, Lee Know it was bothering me so he cleared his throat to get my attention, "please don't feel like asking you to dinner was a mistake cause it wasn't." he said.

"Well you should see it from my point of view." I said. "I love the boy but sometimes..."

"He over does it." Lee Know said making both of us laugh. "he saw you in a bad state so it will be like for awhile."

"I know he told me and if the roles were reverse I would be the same way but he has to understand that I am still the same person that doesn't like someone trying to make my mind up for me."

"I didn't make it any better by speaking up either and I am sorry for that." when he said that I looked over at him.

"Please don't apologize cause for the first time I felt like I was normal." I said making his glance over at me. "Lee Know, between my parents and Changbin I feel like I will fail and I know that is rude considering they are just worried about me but come on with their worried eyes I feel like I am not improving."

"NaRi, I know it is a little overwhelming but would you want them being caring or would you want to be recovering all alone back in LA?"

"You would go there?" I said with a whine. "I like being here but at least in the states, Katie, would still be with me to help."

"She will come around when whatever made her do all of this sinks in so don't worry so much." he said pulling into the front of the complex, he put the car in park and we sat there for a moment. "can I ask a very personal question?"

"Sure, I am an open book." I said.

"Do you have plans to date Changbin?" he thought I wouldn't answer he right away but he soon heard a very quick.

"No." I saw the shocked look on his face," I can see that wasn't what you didn't expect to hear?"

"Well yes and no." he said. "why were you so quick to answer cause couldn't you see yourself with him?"

"Everyday." I said. "I have loved him for so long and not to sound like a romance novel but if I ever had something in my head that included a guy it was always Binnie but Lee Know, it isn't worth the risk of loosing him for something that might not be right."

"I guess you are right but what if you are wrong and he was the one you were suppose to be with?"

"That is something I have to live with I guess but I will say this and it is with caution if we are suppose to be together we both will know it instantly, right now there is too many emotions after what happened so whatever we do doesn't count, does that make any sense?" I asked him.

"It does and at least you are thinking in a right mind cause most girls would take what you two have and run with it without any thought until it goes all wrong."

"The going wrong thing is what bothers me but I may have to not see him so much though."

"Why is that?"

"Cause both of us are on an emotional rollercoaster and if pushed hard enough I will go back to the states to keep from what took place tonight." Lee Know knew I meant what I said. "well I best go in cause I know my Eomma is waiting up for me even though I told her not too."

"I understand, I don't want her upset with me cause I kept you out too late. I did enjoy having you at the house tonight."

"I enjoyed myself. Please send me a text to let me know you made it home safe, ok?"

"I will do. I hope you sleep well."

"Me too." I said opening the door and stepping out then turning to look back at him, he gave me a wave and I returned it and he watched me slowly head into the building until I was on the elevator that was when he drove off.