Life isn't Sweet {MizuEna}

- Part 4 -

It was nearly mid day,

when Mizuki woke up from their nap

They had fallen asleep,

after making that scrapbook

Their feelings ran deep

But not too deep

Emotions can never be too deep

because that's just how they are

As much as Mizuki was suffering,

they pushed their feelings aside

They were important, but Mizuki refused

to let their feelings define them

And that went for pain, too

Anything in life can be poisonous

-- Too much venom

But there is always a balance of some positive

which mattered more

Mizuki's life had many things in store

For them

like never before

They knew life wasn't always games and fun

but they could incorporate some good in their life

Life itself wasn't always the villian

Anything can become an threat, an enemy,

but deterring from them could be part of the remedy

the healing

bringing good feelings

to one's heart

Mizuki, in the moment, felt like a free man

for now

No more negative thoughts that may take over,

for they would make their happiness lower

and it would be too late

As Mizuki checked their mobile phone,

Ena's reply hit too close to home

It nearly made them cry

but at the same time the heart-touching response

made them want to fly

from her immense kindness

Ena had such a kind heart,

but to Mizuki she seemed as though

she was hiding it away

But that was okay

There was nothing wrong with that

Ena looked sweet and ruthless

but only kind words came out of her mouth

of truth

If only the voices in Mizuki's head

would shut the heck up

Not that it really bothered them,

but as long as no negativity stemmed

then things were alright

Mizuki had no reason to envy others

or their own lives

They believed life to be enjoyed,

but to stay rooted in reality

Nothing is certain in life,

but the way we influence it

can have many impacts

and maybe keep our lives intact

and ourselves

Mizuki opened another text, one from their sister,

Her chilling text making their heart drop in a whisper

She was still abroad in France or at least in Europe,

Mizuki hoped that she was getting recognition soon

Or maybe they were rude

about her many talents

like that vocational school

back in Japan

Their older sister had such a keen eye for fashion,

so their heart ached if she was "rejected" in France

But it was always nice to have an escape from life

and Mizuki was glad their sister was doing well

Caring about her gave them their own escape

from their and Ena's hell

The sun was lowering beyond its line

and Mizuki surprisingly felt fine

They didn't feel as negatively mellow today

Was that a sign of something -- a good sign?

Whether or not it was, they felt happy anyway

Another day -- another day without Ena, but that was okay

As long as she was happy herself, and as long as she was fine

That alone spoke volumes

for Mizuki

Still -- even though Mizuki had everyone's support

Their other friends, Ena, their older sister

Somehow they still felt all alone

Their heart trying to distort

oddly enough -- it did

Mizuki eventually called it a day

Their cute fleece nightgown making them smile

in every way

They lay down in bed,

and instead of crying

they nearly broke themselves

It wasn't just about Ena

It was much, much more than that

Not even Mizuki themselves could explain the pain

That they had

and didn't want to share.