Bakutodo oneshots

Just to be with you

2nd year AU
Mentions of suicide and overdose
I'm sorry in advance Ash🙏
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Two weeks. Two weeks have past and I still can't take my mind off of you. Two weeks have past and I still don't understand why you did it. Two weeks have past and I wonder what I could've done differently to help you. Two weeks have past since you took your own life.

I sit in my room almost everyday now. I can't bring myself to get up and do anything. I blame myself. I blame your asshole of a father. I blame your shitty villain brother.

I hate the promise you made me. The one of us becoming pro hero's and fighting side by side. I hate that i've only knew you for 2 1/2 years. I hate that I never got to confess to you that I love you.

I look on my side table and see the note you wrote to me. You wrote one for Deku, Momo, some other people, and your family. You even wrote one to Endeavor, because you thought it was right.

I pick up the note to read it for probably the 100th time. I open it and read through it like I did the first time.

Dear Katsuki,

     I can't even bring myself to say sorry. It's just what felt right. I want you to know that I did try. I tried to live for you. I tried to live for our promise. But I just couldn't do it anymore.

     Every where I went, people would remind me of who I am not. They would call me a traitor or a villain. They would ask me why my father abused me and I never said anything. They would point out my scar and say 'his mother gave him that.' I just couldn't take it anymore.

     You though. You were one of the only people that stood up for me. I know my other classmates wanted too, but they were scared. But not you. That's why I always admired you. Even though you seem like an asshole, you care for those you are close with.You're going to be someone I will always remember and miss.

      I'm going to miss you holding me in your arms while I cried for hours. You whispering sweet nothings and giving kisses on my head when you thought I was asleep, but in reality I wasn't. I'm going to miss your voice and how you would always correct me for things I would do. How you would explain things I didn't get.

      There is one thing I regret between us though. I regret not telling you how I actually feel towards you. I regret not telling you that I love you and I want to be yours. But there's nothing really I can do anymore, because by the time you read this, I'll already be dead.

      So do me a favor. Live for as long as you can. Become a pro hero and have a family of your own. Protect the people from things they can't protect themselves from. Live for me.

     I love you Katsuki and I always will.

Love, Shoto

I wanted to cry. But my eyes were too tired. I couldn't feel anything. The person I love is dead and I couldn't even confess. I want to rip his note in half and get rid of it, but it's the last thing he gave me. I can't help but to keep my mind from wondering.

How did he feel when he did it. How did he feel when writing these letters. How did he feel about writing my letter. How did he feel when he dropped off the letters. How did he feel after he died.

I couldn't take it anymore. I miss him and I know he wants me to live for him, but he is what I lived for. I wanted to be with him again. I needed to be with him again.

I got out of my bed and scrambled trough my draws to find anything. Anything to take away my pain. Once I found the perfect thing, I knew I couldn't leave without explaining. I wrote letters. Exactly like Shoto did. I wrote one to my parents, to the stupid extras I call friends, I surprisingly wrote one to Deku, and I wrote one to Shoto's siblings. It felt right.

I left the notes on my desk, not caring to deliver them individually like Shoto did before he killed himself. I grabbed a bottle of pills from my bedside table, dry swallowing every single one. I felt nothing. Then a wave of tiredness hit me, making me pass out on my bed. Everything went dark.

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Kirishima's pov

It's been two weeks since we last saw Bakugo. He locked himself in his room after reading his letter from Todoroki. Me and the others in our group have been bringing him the stuff he needs from school. We've also been bringing him food and other self care things. But now we are really worried.

Me, mina, Denki, and Sero are all standing outside his door. I knock on the door, no answer. I sigh before reaching for the handle, surprised when it turns to be opened. We walk in and at that moment, I regret coming so late.

We ended up calling Aizawa who called the police. This same situation that happened with another student not so long ago, rushing to everyone's mind. The police come out and hand a certain group of people letters. They handed me mine, along with Todoroki's siblings. I stare at the letter for a second, before looking up and catching glimpses of Katsuki's parents. I close my eyes while I started to open up the letter assigned to me, then opened my eyes.

Ejirou. I'm not really one to say sorry, but that's all I can say. I couldn't bare to live every single day without Shoto. I tried to, but every thought, every small particle, reminded me of him and I needed to see him again. I needed to tell him how I felt and be with him. So that's why I did it. So let me tell you this. Confess to her. Tell her you love her before you can't. You really are a good guy. Love you man.

I smiled as I finished reading the letter. I look over at Mina, who's crying. I walk over to her and bring her into a hug. The rest of the group joins us.

I'm glad you're finally happy again Bakugo.

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'Where am I?'

I asked myself as I slowly opened my eyes to see my body laying dead on my bed. Oh right. Now I remember. I left my old dorm room and body and headed towards certain others to see if he was there.

I gavels a small knock on the door. It's quite weird that even when dead you have a solid like form as if you were still alive.

I wait outside the door for a minute before it is opened and I'm met with a pair of shocked, but beautiful, eyes.

"K-Katsuki?" He stuttered out before walking/floating up to me. He placed his ghostly hands on my face, studying me. "Y-You're dead? But why, how?"

I took his hands off my face and into my own. I held them tightly before bringing him into a tight hug. "None of that matters." I release from the hug, but kept my hands in his, "All that matters right now is that i'm here and with you. I love you Shoto."

He started at me for a second, tears filling his gorgeous eyes before throwing himself on me, his arms going around my neck. I slithered my arms around his waist and it's like they fit perfectly.

"I love you too Katsuki."

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