*feeling defeated and guilty I suddenly felt a quick tap in my back and I realized it was lee staring at me like he wanted to say something* "...look tom..juju has been like that for many years many many years before u even met her so don't think it's all ur fault..she been..cutting burning attempting...Tom that night juju was in the hospital- "that..that wasn't the first time..all u see right now is just a glimpse she's been way way worse and I'm afraid she's getting...ill this time and I can't do anything about it I really can't I tried putting her to therapy she didn't even want to breath near the therapist no matter how hard u try to get her to talk about her past she won't say a word and now her depression has gotten worse now plus her anxiety and I really don't know what to do I feel...like I'm letting my only person I love let go I really don't know what to do tom..she's just getting worse by the minute..I really don't know I'm clueless....I really am." *as I am shocked by what he just told me I realized juju has been through so much shit just for me to just make it worse...what the hell am I doing?* *as I walked out the door and got into my car and started speeding through the city I soon made my way to a dark alley where no one was there and I reached out in the passenger cabinet and pulled the gun out and put it against my head feeling anger and started to sob so much shit I put her through so much pain hatred anger what the fuck am I doing here I'm a fucking monster* "fuck!" *i yelled as I threw the gun away and started to sob uncontrollably feeling rage on my skin and feeling bright red wanting to explode I deserve to die I deserve all of the damage I put her through. As I controlled my crying I leaned my head through the window exhausted from everything's soon closed my eyes crying myself to sleep.*
(2 months later) [jujus POV] *its been two months since I saw tom and the last time I saw him we were crying then I fell asleep but then I woke up he was..gone and I really miss him but I've been talking to this guy that is very sweet he is somewhat flirtatious and he is so weird but that's what makes him as a person and I love him and not to long ago I posted him on my social media*
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*and our relationship has been great I'm going back to school but I haven't seen tom there or mason thank god but I'm really worried about Tom and I don't know where he could be* *well it's another day while I'm walking to school someone suddenly called my name* "juju..?" *as I turned around to see who it was I was in complete shock*
