"Omg Tom!" *as I ran to him and gave him the biggest hug feeling his warm body against mine and his hand on my waist* "hey how have u been" "I missed u so much!" "..I know but I just wanted to take a break I'm sorry I hope- "it's ok I understand don't worry do u want to meet my boyfriend?" "....boyfriend?" "...yea sorry I just wanted to rip the bandaid off...I can explain I thought u were already with someone else and I had a really hard time believing that u would come back but then I found him at a party and he was...just like u.." *as he stared at me he suddenly came in for another hug* "I'm very sorry juju" "it's fine..sooo do u want to meet him?" "Ughh fine let's just get this over with" *he said as he sighed and rolled his eyes while I let out a little giggle while walking to school* *as I entered the school I saw Blade right away* "baby!" *he said as he walked up to me before I got there, as he kissed me while squeezing my ass as I wonder how tom felt* [toms POV] *my blood was boiling as I saw her kissing another asshole and him who does he think he is touching her like that prick* [back to jujus POV] *as I pulled back I introduced them to each other* "blade this is tom and Tom this is blade" "nice to meet u man!" *he said reaching his hand out to tom trying to shake it but he refused as his other hand was holding mine* "hey.." *as the bell rang blade let go of my hand and needed to go to his class since we were in different classes* "bye my love I'll see u at lunch!" "Bye!" *as I said bye I faced Tom to see him bright red with in angry look on his face* "..heyyy going to chem wanna come with..?" "Yea sure.." *he said as he quickly smiled* "u know ur boyfriends an ass right?" "Tom u barely know him- "juju I don't know why u got with him...what u thought I died and that's when u decide to get another guy" "hey I'm not the one who left- "I left u because I was hurting u!" "Hurting me?" *i said as I scoff* "Tom iv been hurt way many times that u don't know about I even hurt myself how can U possibly be hurting me?" "That's exactly my point u were in pain and in anger feeling all this guilt because of me.." *as we both stayed silent me knowing that what he said was..really true* "I knew u were with mason and yet I didn't stop myself from getting with u and when mason found out that's when he took it out on u now u were the one feeling guilty and I did that to u I did so that's why I left!" "....so what did u do when u left" "....trust me u don't want to know." *he said as he walked over me making his own way to the class while I just headed into the restroom trying not to cry* *as I stayed in the restroom the whole day until it was time for dismissal I got out until someone reached for my wrist with a tight grip* "where the fuck were u I was worried as shit!?" *tom said as he's making eye contact with me while I'm just looking at the front of the exit walking out not caring he has a hand on me* "nun of ur business ur the one who hurt me at the end so go go leave like u did then come back like u didn't and now get annoyed just because I found someone go" "juj- *as I turned around quickly looking at him dead in the eye feeling mad he won't leave me alone* "Tom I said go." *i said as I pulled my hand out of his grip and turned around now walking back to the house trying not to throw or punch something* (also while tom was gone juju kinda developed anger issues since Tom wasn't there she actually got WORSE I know but even though tom thinks it got better it just got bad without him so yea oh also throwing or punching sometimes kicking is one of her signs that she's mad) *as I got to the house I slammed the door behind me making lee question why I'm mad now* "juju what's going on now u better not break ur NEW MIRROR THAT COST ME 7000 plus you'll cut ur hand again at get even more scars u want more scars?" "It's not like I don't cut myself already" *i mumble* "what?" "Omggg lee just mind ur own GODAMN BUSINESS FOR ONCE!" *i screamed at him while I made my way upstairs to my room now slamming that door trying to control my anger trying not to punch the mirror again* *as I grabbed my knife I gripped on it knowing this was going to hurt* "shit!" *i said trying to hold in the pain while I was cutting deeper and deeper into my skin* *as tears started rolling down my face onto the ground I tried to do only 5 lines since the last time I did 8 I felt like it was all my fault and I deserved to feel hurt it's the reason why I cut myself but sometimes I try to control it so I don't get to close to a vain and might pop but sometimes it gets the best of me. After I was squirting in blood and it couldn't stop so I went into the kitchen to get a paper towel* "fuck fuck fuck fuck!" *i screamed as lee turned to me confused until he saw all the blood I was loosing since it was getting on the floor* "juju what the fuck!" *as we were out of paper towels I grabbed a cloth and wet to put over my wrist* "juju what the hell were u thinking!?" *as the door bell rang and lee was frustrated he quickly opened the door* "OMG WHAT!?" *too see that it was Tom standing there and lee looking surprised since he hasn't seen him either. As I saw him I rolled my eyes and tried to get back to my room until lee stopped me* "juju move one step and I'm going to fucking put u back to therapy because this is getting out of hand!" *as I rolled my eyes I saw tom peeking a little through the door* "...what did she do..?" "Yea juju what the actual fuck did u do why don't u tell him what u did bc I would love to know!" *he grabbed me by my other wrist and pulled me closer to show tom he uncovered the cloth for Tom to see my wet bloody wrist that had five deep cuts still dripping with blood* "..what- *as Tom couldn't even speak he looked up at me with wide eyes* "u..u actually do this shit to ur self...?" "And why don't u show him ur other scars on ur hand by punching the fucking mirror!" *he said as he pulled out my other hand where my knuckles were red and there were scars on my hand* *as he looked back down he saw the scars until I finally said something* "lee why don't u just stfu for once bc instead of just ending up with scars I'm going to be ending up in the fucking hospital with the amount of fucking blood I'm losing!" *as I took the cloth out of his hand and put it over my wrist again I looked back at Tom and me saying something* "I told u u couldn't hurt me." *i said as I walked back inside to wet the cloth again* "....can I come in please" "..sure" *as Tom came in he head over to me as he looked down again* "how...how are u used to this much pain..?" "Iv been through way worse and iv been doing this since 11 years old so yea I would consider me being pretty used to it" *i said in a sarcastic but literal tone* "does he know about this...?" "..no and I won't tell him bc I don't want him to worry." "Juju ur losing a lot of blood..." "yea no shit Tom" "..I'm telling bc I care about u...I hope u know that" *as I tears started to roll down my face wondering- "Tom why...why did u leave me why did u need to leave hurt me mentally physically I don't care I just want u by my side." *he stayed silent* "I fall into pieces when ur not with me I missed u and u weren't here for me but although u might not believe it I still love u." *as I got close to him I softly kissed him while he slowly started wrapping his hands around my waist and stared kissing me back while he took one of his hand of my waist and wiped my tears off my eyes while he pulled away* "please juju...please don't cry..u don't know how much it kills me to see u like this." *he said while looking desperately at me* "u can go to my room I'll be right there..." *as he let go of me giving me a little peck on my cheek he went upstairs into my room while I washed off the blood I have and dried it since the bleeding calmed down now. I went upstairs into my room and closed the door* "so what did u do when u were gone"
"thinking abt u." "U really don't know how much I missed u juju how I missed the way u touched me the way u kiss me even the way u would get mad at me" *as I chuckle I take off my pants I had on and only with my thong and laid down on the bed while tom turned around* "what.. aren't u tired?" "Wel- *as I pulled him close to me hugging him with my head on his chest not letting him finish which caused him to giggle* "there's my smile" *i said looking up to him* "I'm always gonna smile when I'm around u juju" "yea shut up and sleep with me" "I'd love to." *as we both laughed I closed my eyes relieved he was ok and having him in my arms just made my heart flutter but soon I was sound asleep in his arms.*
-to be continued
