Still don't know my name

Chapter 8

ZEEL

I don't know how this happened, but we are halfway through NOVEMBER and I or shall we say WE me and my girlfriend are producing songs, an indie cover written by the most beautiful person ever and composed by the same and sung by the one who is so fucking nervous and insecure, and guilt ridden, they might just explode off the heat. Yeah, you guessed it right ME. Cat is so fucking excited to release a song, she is working extra shit whole day and keeping up with her is so mind blogging hard right now. All I am able to do is feed her and make out when she exits her studio.

I won't lie this doesn't feel world experience, but the past trauma is deep rooted in my guts, I am so fucking indulging in self guilt, I am not able to enjoy myself 100%. She doesn't push me to sing, it's me who need to cover the courage and rock my girl's dream. She had this amazing first sight fall in love genre type song written and it is FREAKING FABULOUS. I love it. She won't tell me the origin if it's true or fantasy, but I bet it's the best SONG before it is even sung.

I placed an appointment at the singing studio to record the song. Cat dragged me to my closet and chose the most mismatched pair of blue demin shorts and fuzzy overbearing sweater, I mean this is fucking November, I will be freezing my nuts, but she insisted.

We reached the studio, and my legs are fucking frozen, damn baby I can't even take a step as I slid myself into the studio. The place is covered with thousands of color balloons and the temperature is pretty warm and I don't regret wearing shorts right now. There is this ribbon on the wall, oh my god. It reads 'ILOVEYOU SWEET BEAN' this is Cat, she is so fucking adorable. I love her so much. I pulled her to my chest and kissed her cheeks and her jaw and whispered, "Why all of a sudden?"

"Baby, this is you giving singing a second chance and I won't let that day go without a party, I LOVE YOU SO much my ZEE." Damn, every time she calls me hers, I smelt like a freaky ice. She is mine and I am hers.

The people at the studio had all this planned way before I even decided to drag my ass here, Cat knew I will do this for her, and she is so supporting me and is so happy for me.

I recorded the song and people are crying, I mean this is the GOAT song but why are they crying, Cat is in near sob herself, I approached her and lifted her chin to make her catch my gaze. She looked straight to my soul and whispered, "I wrote this song the day I saw you the very first time. You were my hope to the brighter day. After I lost my mom, I never knew I would be so happy to see someone, but no you proved me wrong. One glance from you makes my day brighter than thousand suns. I am in so LOVE with you, it actually hurts, here." She clutched her chest near her heart and goddamn it my eyes are blurring with so many emotions. I hugged my girl so tight I might break her; I released her and kissed her so fucking hard, and it actually covers all the lost time since we saw each other but our insecurities begging us to stay afoot.

Cat and I reached my home hungry for each other. We devoured ourselves to the sweet sense of pure lust. We made LOVE for the very first time. It is nothing like I would have ever imagines but it is everything I needed. My girl in my arms, in my bed and in my goddamn fucking heart.

The next morning is so fucking shiny, Cat is not a great snuggler, but she won't ever complain, I always trap her to my arms and shift in her embrace. My birthday is day after thanksgiving and I don't know, my family is so making me want to come home, but I want to meet her DAD, the person who raised the love of my life. Cat had confirmed, her aunt would stay with her dad on Christmas, and we could visit my parents then. She is slowly waking up, our starkers body lying on the bed, and she sniffed my hair as I am snuggled in her neck. Her lips turned upward, and she kissed my goddamn head. Ahhh, it feels like fucking torture. How this girl can even exist.

I quickly placed a kiss on her forehead and slipped off the bed to make us some coffee. She is not properly functioned without morning coffee. I start the machine and waiting for the aroma to trail the house. Cat came out of my room wearing underpants and my hoodie. Every time she wears my article, I lose my goddamn mind.

She approached me kissed me on my cheeks and asked, "So you need help in packing?"

She is so cute asking me but no I wanna surprise her, this is first fucking time meeting my girlfriend's parent and I sure wanna impress them. I FUCKING LOVE their daughter.

"No, I guess I am pretty packed up, just few more articles I will be good to go." I explained.

We are leaving day after tomorrow for Minnesota and don't get me fucking wrong I'm petrified beyond anything but with Lina all my worry washes over me, and sense of relief tugs my chest.

"Sweet bean, I am so happy you are visiting me to Minnesota it's like I am taking a girlfriend to meet my dad for the very first time, I am kind of hoping he won't be too weird, but he is weird I love him so giddy much." She cheered.

I chuckled and poured coffee in two mugs, handed her the one with 1 DIRECTION logo. Damn my girl is 1D fan and I am never prouder. Harry is absolutely fucking adorable of all of them, but no one can top TS.

We sat in front of the TV and started binged Netflix. I really wish I could wake to see her smiling face. I want her to move in with me but this decision I cannot make without consulting Bran and gathering her opinion. She matters too for my sake. She is my fucking logical side; I love her endlessly.