Still don't know my name

Chapter12

ZEEL

Geez, I love teasing my girl. She is tomato red. She ran onto the backyard; I have to make up to her with some hot kisses. I reached the backyard and frowned. She ran here without any gloves or even any socks. Fuck, it's freezing here, I quickly ran inside to grab some quilt and socks. I draped the quilt from behind her and I came face to face, I made silent apology with my eyes, she nodded, 'it's ok,' I bent down and made her wear the pair of socks. Now my heart can breathe, watching her getting enough warmth. I sat beside her and wrapped my arms in her waist, she kept her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes. I hummed some tunes, mesmerised by the beautiful night, beautiful girl beside me. I closed my eyes too.

I spoke with my eyes closed with slow voice, "Cat, you know I love you but these past few days as you encountered my anxiety attacks, my uneasiness, my vulnerability and how you reacted with pure love. I just look at you sometimes and think, 'damn, I love this woman so fucking much it actually hurts,' it hurts here." I gestured towards my chest with closed eyes. "My heart hammers against my chest like a maniac in love, whenever you are in the room. I don't want to spend even a single minute without you. I may sound clingy and desperate because I am, Lina will you move in with me?" I inhaled a strong breath, huffing strong smell of fresh coffee and my Lina in me, she smells like fresh coffee for damn sake.

I slowly opened my eyes, Lina is already grazing me with those blue bold eyes and suddenly all self-conscious with my confession, I fidgeted. She keeps skimming me and my soul is shivering. She closed the little distance we had and covered me in a bear hug. Hugging and squeezing me so hard, it actually started hurting but this is Cat's hug, the most power bearing thing ever. I closed my eyes and sniffed and smelted with such sway of love.

"Are you kidding me Sweet bean, I love you so much, I want to near you every second of my life, but...." She trailed. I grasped her hand and squeezed with little strength. She bored her eyes in me and exhaled a breath. "Ever since mom's death, I struggled with healing, I have separation issues, I always has a feeling, if I get too attached there is always a flight risk. But with you baby, it feels like forever. I want to believe in forever for us. I love you dang much. And for that question you asked, of course I will move in with you. I would love to be your roomie, my Sweet Bean." She smooched my lips, cheeks, and jaws with wet open mouth kisses.

"Won't Bran mind me moving in?" she asked. I already thought about that, of course she will mind, she has OCD, but nothing a best friend can't solve. "OF course, she won't mind. Have you met you? Lovely girl ever." I retorted.

"Aren't you being little biased, seeing I am your girlfriend you love. Are you sure?" she pressured.

"I haven't asked her yet, she is bit paranoid with her surroundings as you know but she won't be upset, she knows how long I pined for you. Literally years. Baby, its fine. I will make her up." I confirmed.

"Okay, I will be there when you'll talk to her." She kissed me a long but soft kiss and stood up.

"Come on, sweet bean, I am going to bake a upside down cake for dessert. Aren't you gonna watch me bake?" she quirked her brows. She knows I love watching her bake, she is a fucking Diva while baking, GODDAMNIT she is teasing me. I stood up and pressed a piercing kiss which made her wobbled and starving for more. Satisfied with the results I started moving, clutching her hands in mine dragging her along with me.

I reached living and announced, "Ma, Pa, me and Lina are moving in together after we reach back to the town." I blushed a little. It is a fucking big step; I haven't done something quite this big like this like ever. My parents hugged me and then they hugged Cat. Huh, my parents are always supportive, either me coming out to them, or anything else. The maximum punishment and the worse I hated them was because they took me to Paris during Valentine's because they wanted to celebrate together, and I missed proposing the girl I had crush on since forever and I had found out she is gay. After we came back, some other gal asked her out and I was so angry that time.

Apart all this smugness from me, my parents are the best. They have the best chemistry, epic love story and perfect example for me growing up to find one like theirs. Pa was the jock in their high school and ma was obviously cheer leader captain. Pa had crush on mom for like forever, ma rejected him every single time he asked her out. While the truth was ma also secretly pining for him. After 11 rejections, Pa approached her again, few days before Prom and Ma said YES finally. They went to Prom together, finished high school, did a bit of long distance while college and married after the year of graduation from college. And within a year, they had me, sweet ole me.

All those rom com but my parents love is my fav. I just admire them so much. They are the sweetest love birds ever. Now they have some competition.

Now I need to talk to my Bran, Lina is asleep with all the baking she had done, gosh she looks so mesmerising. I slipped off the bed and dialled Bran.

"Zee, why are you calling at this hour, are you okay??" she demanded.

"Yes, honey, I am fabulous, but I have some kind of request. You know I have this Girlfriend, whom I love more than anything, I kind of asked her to move in with me. I totally forgot to ask you beforehand. Please Bran, I need Lina with me, would you mind if she moves in with us?" I blurted.

There was snorting sound from the other side of the line, I am confused, this is same as the day I told her I 'talked' to Lina.

"Honey, are you okay?" I asked worriedly.

She caught her breathe and answered, "I am prefect, but zee is this you? Really you??? I mean I would love to have Lina with us, but I haven't seen you make first moves since forever. But then Lina happened, and you are the queen of first moves. I am so proud of you. So, when is Lina moving in with us?"

I am shocked with the compliment, I shook my head and smiled wearily. Gosh, I love my best friend.

"I don't' know maybe after we come back after the holidays. Bran, thank you so much, I am so happy." I chuckled.

"No thank you, silly." She paused and then, "It's all for a selfish reason, Lina is an amazing baker, I would love to learn some tips and tricks from her. Then I will be ultimate cook, see I am not so selfless baby." She snorted again.

I chuckled and shook my head, that's my best friend y'all. "Now go have your beauty sleep, Merry Christmas, Honey." I spoke.

"Merry Christmas, Zee." She replied back and we did quick goodbyes and hung up the call.

I am staring at the ceiling as I lied down beside Cat, snuggling her. Overwhelmed with so many happy hormones. Geez, I can't stop smiling. My lips hurt.

I kissed Cat on the forehead and said quick good night, snuggled deep, and fell asleep.