Still don't know my name

Chapter 2

ZEEL

Damn, I took a long shower. My roommate is going to eat me alive if I arrive late for our dinner. She is a cooking major, she cooks damn delicious meals but she is an OCD patient and hence, time punctuality, which is not an OCD symptom, but she had me under her fingers since the start. OH YES, MY ROOMMATE IS MY FREAKING BEST FRIEND BRANDY. She is the most amazing friend in this universe, and I happen to be lucky to be her best friend.

"I swear to GOD ZEE if you are going to come late, I am going to lose my mind" Brandy glares.
I try to reach her, but she is pacing the room like she has been infected with a disease which she needs to get off her shoulders right now.

"BRAN, I am so sorry, I was taking a shower and I lost track of time. I swear Bran you know I would never hurt you and there is this news about Lina."

Bran shakes her head in disappointment, but her eyes twinkle with amusement with the news of Lina on the hook.

She sits on the dining table and started serving the meal along with starting the conversation I have been meaning to tell her all evening. "What about her?" she exhales.

"We talked." I start.

"Well, you talk to her in your imagination daily, ZEE. I need details on how you gathered up the baggage of those courage you were loitering in the bedroom and approached her." She huffs.

"It wasn't like that, actually I bumped into her when I got off the bus and she calmed me down before I would have fallen on my face and destroyed this beautiful mess." I gesture toward my face.

"So, she saved you like your shining Armor queen?" she chuckles.

Bran has been listening to my TEENY TINY crush convert to a balloon since last year and a half and she knows how much I wanted to talk to Lina since then.

"Not to be dramatic but yeah it sort of felt like that. Gosh Bran, she is gorgeous, she is so fucking beautiful and she smells like sweet water. HUH, I wanna scream 'UNIVERSE PLEASE TELL ME THIS WON'T JUST END UP BEING A SINGLE SIDED LOVE STORY'. But Bran, read this." I handed over my phone to the chat thread between me and Lina.

Her expression is serious at first, a smile and a nod in between and then a laugh at the last. SHIT, what is happening? Bran tells me for GOD'S sake. She hands me my phone back and I clutch it to my heart like it's a piece of goddamn gold.

"Bran, tell me what is it? Why are you laughing, honey????"

I am losing my goddamn mind right now. Her expression is goddamn evil and devilish.
"Oh, my sweet ZEE, honey. She is flirting with you. Why are you so naive? She likes you for PETE'S SAKE."

"She does?" I ask, blushing.

"AWW my sweet baby, you are so cute when you are blushing. Yes, honey she likes you. And you know I can examine people just as well as I can examine food so never doubt that." She assures me.

"I would never doubt you BRAN, I just.... It felt so good the first time talking to her. As you can see, we are building a GODDAMN band, I mean if she still wants to." I slouch.

Bran comes up beside me, side-hugs me and whispers in my ears, "ZEE, you know you have the sweetest and best voice in this campus, duh, in this city or country as well. You have to give yourself credit that you deserve this band opportunity if it still exists tomorrow, and you will quit trying to convince me, Lina or yourself that you don't deserve this."

Fuck, she knows me so well. I know I just fucking told Lina I will sing but Bran knows I will never sing after what had happened earlier. I love Bran so fucking much.

"Bran, I love you so damn much, you are literally the best human to exist in this goddamn world, but you know I can't sing, not publicly at least. You know I can't after what happened." I sink into the dining seat.

"Don't you dare blame yourself for what happened. It was a shitty accident that involved you and your sweet voice, so stop beating yourself or I shall jump into the action and would not mind a beat beating you to your senses, alright?"

I nod unable to say anything further. I just know I would have not survived if Bran would have not been there, and I would have drowned myself in self guilt and loathe for eternity. I am so grateful to have Bran in my life, even if I just sit and take all her care without giving anything as much in return.

"So, you wanna eat or are you going to torture me more with this late time? Shit, it's been 45 minutes past mealtime." She is spiraling. I start eating the most GODDAMN delicious spaghetti noodles I have ever eaten. Bran is an amazing cook and THE MOST AMAZING friend in the world.
I take off from the living room and sink in my bed, mentally scrolling through the events of the day. The MOST AMAZING DAY OF MY LIFE. Lina knows me, she flirted with me, she is going to meet me tomorrow, Bran again filled my self confidence in me, she cooked the most delicious meal of my life. I am so grateful for this day to exist.

I write all that in my journal and close my eyes for the sweet sleep to take over. I hear a click.
Lina: NIGHT sweet bean.