Still don't know my name

Chapter 6

ZEEl

So now I have a fucking girlfriend whom I have been crushing for more than a year. And she likes me back and definitely want to kiss me again. This day had been a crazy combo for GOD sake. I just happen to be spared of Bran's wrath because Lina was there with me and duh man, I just want to dance with her. We have chemistry clearly. My brunette hair with her blonde, me being 5'6 and she being an inch shorter and still perfectly fitting in my arms. She already cleared her sexuality I mean it is not my concern, but she is attracted to me. Since fresher's party like I am. Damn that made me feel stupid cause she liked me, and I did nothing. God I should have at least talked with her but nah my big insecurities making me frozen in my place.

Whenever I am happy, I just want to sing my heart out, today I am happy beyond any words, and I want to sing the whole TAYLOR SWIFT discography. I am just in love with pop and indie, it soothes me and make me sobbing doll, laughing maniac or an angry squirt. Holy shit I want to sing to someone, I want to sing to Lina and gosh these emotions are overflowing. Ever since that day I haven't sang in front of anyone and these insecurities are taking up my brain. I know I am good but if someone new who haven't heard me before will compare me to a pop singer and then what I lose all my self-esteem. Shit I can't have that done to me. I can't have Lina (my girlf) think I am total piece of shit cause my voice is shit.

I placed Taylor's 1989 vinyl and hopped on my bed and started lip syncing and totally lost until of course Bran barged into my room because best friends don't know the concept of privacy and it is nine at night. She should be scrolling through recipes and curating some unique recipes for her class. But she had different plans of course because my crush came to our house, and it is kind of a big deal watching me being a sucker over CATALINA. Damn her full name rolls of my tongue so well. I just want to call her that forever and I will never be tired.

"Hi best friend." Still jumping on my soft mattress.

She waved me and gestured me to stop playing the songs, I hopped off the bed, shut the melodious voice, and dragged my Bran to sit with me. She did it and I can see so many questions in her eyes. She wants to ask my experience but not so easy baby first you gotta tell me about your date.

"How was the date? Did he check all the points in the list??" I asked sincerely, as I know her, she has a mental checklist and not even one off can surpass her eyes.

"No, we will not change the fucking topic, you tell me what happened. Lina seems amazing." She states.

Suddenly all shy and hot, I quickly nodded and turned towards the record, but Bran grabbed me throwed me on the bed. Yes, I am not getting out of this interrogation any time soon.

"Uh, yeah, she is the coolest. I don't want to spoil my love life when it is this new, I hope you understand." I teased.

"Don't give me this bullshit, I know you Zee, your next meal won't be processed until you'll talk to me, so spill." She demanded.

Alright. Pleased that I am defeated, and I stated every incident happened since Lina came home and left. Bran is nodding, smiling, and then laughed like a maniac. She is seriously a maniac; shit I love this zealot.

I told her that me and Lina are girlf now and I am soo fucking exited to meet her tomorrow as my official girlf.

After spilling my every detail of my love life, it is only fair to get something in return so of course I forced Bran to sit in front of me confess her first date with this guy named Liam she matched on tinder.

"He is definitely not ugly I mean seeing his profile I was literally drooling so what happened when you actually met him??" I started.

"Yeah, he is not ugly well definitely hot, and he almost checked all the list except he doesn't know how to cook, which would have been the biggest red flag, but he states he has joined a cooking class to learn as his younger sis is visiting him here and he don't want her to eat al fresco as it is not good for young health. Damn, Zee I wanted to kiss that guy right there but of course my self-esteem won't let me do that embarrassing thing so, the date ended I called the cab when the car arrived, he opened the door for me and leaned in for a kiss and I swear best first kiss ever. We are meeting on the weekend at his cooking class, it's kind of a date." She stated everything in a puff.