Gemini and Fourth were lovers...in their past lives. He tried to save him, really. But cold waters washed away the only reason of his existence, the person he had sworn to protect...
Its been three years now that sudden shipwreak had taken Fourth fr...
It was that time of the year again, where the blossoms bloom and the crickets sing. The season Fourth loved most. The season that I want to erase most.
This day exactly three years ago, was the day his spirit was released into the afterlife, taking my heart with him. I woke up.
A part of me died inside.
It was the same routine every morning, afternoon, and night. I would wake up, shower, make myself a cup of coffee, and then pour half a bottle of whiskey into the same cup, downing it in one go.
This is the only way I can keep myself from joining Fourth. By intoxicating myself with alcohol. It's too the point where I forget why I even need to be drunk, this is the state where I am happiest.
I don't eat properly anymore. The person who cooked my meals is not with me.
I can't eat without blinding myself with tears. I can't drink without his face inprinted on my eyelids. I can't sleep without missing his warm shape, curled up on my chest.
My family try to snap me out of this trance.
"It's been three years! You have to get over it!" I just nod, tipsy with the bottles I consumed.
"What ever happened to uncle Gem?" Tinn's sweet voice can't even bring me back to life.
"Let him be, child" his father whispers in his ear "He lost the one he loves most"
"Did uncle Gem love him as much as Pa loves you? " he then whispers in a voice he thinks I cannot hear.
"You can't compare the love Gem has for Fourth to anything, baby" His Pa says, smiling weakly.
"I think we should leave uncle Gem alone now"
"You can't keep living like this, you know" my brother's soft voice rings in my ears.
"I can do whatever I damn well want to! I don't expect you to understand me...I don't expect anyone to understand me!" anger was bubbling inside me, I crush the can in my hand, spilling pale yellow liquid as I do so.
"I think you should leave" I tried to control myself.
He nodded, patting my back as he stepped out the room.
"Bye bye uncle Gem" Tinn's soft arms wrap around my neck "I hope you feel better soon."
I squeezed out a small smile for my nephew as he was walked out of the room by his father and his Pa.
I know I shouldn't keep living like this, but how will I ever be able to let go of him? The angel that stole my heart, the demon that left me.
My Fourth. My rosebud boy. -------------------------------------------------------- Present Gem's pov:
It takes a lot of courage for me to finally sit back into my car, and drive to his grave. His smell still lingered in the passenger seat, and a picture of us hung on the mirror...
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