deja vu

epiphany

Present...

Two weeks after Gemini's death

Pond's pov:

It was way after midnight before I heard scuffling on the front door. I scrambled out of bed, pulling on a robe as I wished with all my heart it was my husband.

I haven't seen him in a week, ever since I overheard his conversation with Liming, I thought he didn't care about me, about Tinn, about this family.

Liming told me that he booked a room for Phwuin in a hotel next to Gemini's burial spot, that he would keep an eye my husband for me until he came to his senses.

The door scuffled again, and I heard the jangling of keys in the lock before a shadow stumbled into the door.

It was him.

But something was off, he looked different, he looked...normal. His face was arranged the way it was before Gemini's death, all his features were relaxed and in the right place, not stiff and twisted like they were the past two weeks. Maybe he had finally accepted the truth. Or maybe he was drunk...again.

"Hey Love" His voice startled me...I haven't heard his normal voice in what seemed like months, he was always sobbing.

"Oh hey...where were you?" I fidgeted with the hem of my robe, it seemed like ages since we last had a conversation. Ever since he said he wanted to die, I felt so much anger and it just never went down, I guess it felt like we were complete strangers.

"I was with Praew and Saleng" He answered abruptly, cutting off my train of thoughts.

Praew and Saleng are his friends from uni, they got married a couple years before we did, and they are expecting their second child by now, I think.

"We hung out and had dinner together" He continued "Praew took me shopping for Tinn" He raised his hand, a heavy plastic bag filled to the brim with school supplies, school uniform...

"She knows all the best shops, since Tinn is starting first grade, I thought I would get him some stuff...-"

He was silenced as I stepped forward quickly, wrapping my arms tightly around his body, the body I have yearned to hold again, for so long now.

"Baby? What's wrong?" He asked me, confused.

I pulled back, my eyes brimming with tears, but I choked them back as I remembered, yes, I'm supposed to be mad at him.

"I...I" I didn't know how to narrow my complicated feelings into a mere sentence.

"I can't believe you would say that" I murmured, staring at him. "Do you not know how much Tinn cares for you!? Do you know how much I care for you?! I just can't believe you would choose to leave us, to leave me...you should know it would just put me in the state you are now"

The words came out jumbled and messy, these words have been corked down for a too long.

He looked back at me, mouth gaping slightly as the plastic bag dropped out of his hand.

"I...I...I didn't-" His eyes were glossy, hand raising up, trying to reach for me.

I flinched away, turning my back to him, I started making my way back to our bedroom.

"Love...Don't walk away from me" His voice started to crack. Shuffling, and I felt cold hands wrap around my waist, pulling me back.

I didn't stop, I tried to untangle his hands from myself.

We were both crying now, tears sliding aimlessly off our faces onto the ground.

I turned around to face him, the cold stare I placed on him slipping away almost immediately after seeing his face. The sight knocked some sense into me.

He had just gone through trauma, he just lost a loved one, he was already devastated, yet I was here, building on his pain, making him feel worse. God...I'm supposed to support him, comfort him, yet I'm here making him feel like the worst person that has ever existed.

"I...I'm sorry..." He reached down, grasping my hand as tears streamed down his face.

"I was so stupid...I said things I don't mean...I'm so sorry. You and Tinn mean the world to me, I would never, ever, want to be separated from this family." He hiccuped.

I reached up and wiped the tears off his face, cupping his cheek in my palm as I looked at him lovingly.

"There there, that was all I needed to hear really, that you love Tinn, that you love me-"

"I do! I love both of you with all my heart, and nothing can ever change that" He looked desperate.

Without any further discussion, I gathered my sobbing mess of a husband in my arms and tried to comfort him by stroking the little baby hairs on his forehead, I always did that when he had nightmares.

It worked, and there he was, snoring quietly in my arms. God...I missed this face.

Trying to be as gentle and subtle I can be in order to not wake him and our son sleeping in the next room, I took his arms and wrapped them around my own neck. Slinging my hands around his waist and legs, I picked him up in one swift move, earning a breathy whine from the sleeping figure in my arms.

Working my way to our bed, flipping over the comforter to wedge him snuggly inside the blankets, I fluffed a couple pillows to place under his head for some support. He mumbles a few words under his breath.

His rosy cheeks and tousled hair make him look...hot, I guess. But I can say that, I'm his husband.

I guess I really shouldn't be thinking about this right now though. He's still mourning, I just wish I could make him feel better.

"It takes one to have a child, but two to be a family..." brushing away loose hair on his face, I leaned down to kiss his forehead.

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A/N:

Y'ALL IM IM SO HYPER MY FAV AUTHOR IS READING MY BOOOOOK😭😭😭

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*more sobbing*

anyways i have come to understand that this chapter does not have much content either but ig i kinda wrote it out of excitment (about what i have still yet to determine)

so if ur not happy feel free to curse me in the comments section with any kinds of vile language u can think of. honestly i do expect it.

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