The hopeless Love

The order

A few days have passed. I was summoned to the King of Mages. Alone, without anyone else from the Order of Magic Knights. I mean, I used to go to Julius Novachrono's a lot back then, but it's always weird when you go into the castle. So full of splendor and everything so noble, so disgusting. I have my cloak of the Black Bull on and my grimoire with me. Ignoring the hooded nobles or mages, I head to the king's office. I hear voices from inside as I get to his door. But just open it, no, I don't do that. Either someone come out or knock. But since I don't want to risk interrupting a conversation, I wait. Suddenly footsteps, heavy footsteps, approach the door. It opens and I wince. I look at the person and recognize the king of magicians. He smiles down at me and offers me his hand, which I immediately accept. He gently pulls me into his office and now I recognize the other person present. A leader of the order. Nozel Silva.I was about to back away when I felt resistance. I look up and see Julius who doesn't seem to want to let me go. really great. What's this going to be like when it's finished? Is Julius siding with Nozel now? "I've been wondering when you're finally coming. I apologize for the inconvenience... But I have an important mission." Julius explains from behind me, gently releasing me. He walks over to Nozel and I remain standing near the door. Ready to escape anytime. "What are you doing here?" Nozel asks his superior. "Well.. Haha.. Well I wanted to talk to her about something. The mission basically goes to her.. But I can't send Yami with her because he already has other things to do. It would be her first mission, to another order." "You want me to accompany Lumiel," Nozel sums up the worst. ,,Exactly. I want you to take on this mission together, but please try to be reconciled. I want you to complete the mission alive and not attack each other. nozel Lumiel. If you -" Julius continues to explain, but I interrupt him immediately. "You can't mean that?! Julius!" I snap at him, catching the attention of both of them. I feel Nozel's eyes on me. I didn't want to have anything to do with him for a while, so why now? Why a mission with him? Does life have me, so much...?"I can-" Julius wants to start, but this time he's interrupted by Nozel. "I understand your frustration. I'll come with you, but I'll stay away from you. How does that sound? Nozel is trying to negotiate with me I don't really like him in general, but as long as he leaves me alone, this mission should work."Fine... what's the mission about?"Together with the grumpy Nozel Silva, I set off on the mission. She's outside of Clover. Outside the capital. We each fly on a broom to the destination. I could never fly with him on a broomstick. I just can't stand being around Nozels. "The enemy might see us if we keep flying towards them. We should land." The guy says and I wince. I almost fell off the broom and I'm glad he didn't see me like that. "You don't have to answer me, but don't fall off the broom.", I wince again. Caught this time. I clear my throat but don't answer him. He said I didn't have to. God, the time isn't running out. ,,Come on now. We land," orders the chapter leader. I growl and follow him anyway. He's right, but I would never admit it openly. I hate Nozel. Everything in my past went wrong because of him. Because of him and because of his two younger ones Siblings, I blew up the Silver Eagle headquarters back then Basically it was his fault and not mine... But everything after that... All the rumours... I was useless I still am I keep trying but every time that grouch is near me I'm on the verge of losing my control, although the building and the rumors - of the renegade knight - wasn't the worst part, it was before I got into the magical ones Order of Knights it was bad. Just like Noelle Silva, the youngest of the Silva siblings, I was put down or put down by the two older siblings - Solid and Nebra. They are nobles and so much better than any other human being on the poop planets. I never wanted to mess with them because whenever I resisted, they would run to my former Chapter Leader. Your older brother, Nozel. This one put me down even more and he felt like kicking me into the ground and it always came across like he wanted me to stay down theree. However, I kept getting up. But at some point I didn't want to anymore. I only did it for Noelle, because if I didn't do anything, nobody would help her. Everyone else just let them down. It also didn't help that she was held responsible for the death of her mother, although the mother died for her daughter.Words like: "You should have died in their place." or "You are a disgrace to the Silva family." - always rained down on her. She was so young. Like me, she had to endure so much pain in her childhood. Do they all know what harm they do to young children? Do they think they can always push her around and put her down? I don't think that's going to happen because everyone grows up eventually. And I am sure that when Noelle is no longer afraid of her siblings, she will become stronger than all of them together and, above all, she will turn against them. They then become just as much a lost legend as the elves.I'm snapped out of my thoughts when I feel two arms around my body and the hard floor against my back. I gasp in shock. I open my eyes and recognize a strange magician. I open my grimoire and use the dark magic to make him let go of me and disappear into nothingness forever. ,,Come! We should hurry!" calls one of the alien magicians and I recognize about twenty of them. They are standing around me. They have me surrounded and they don't seem friendly. I can't see Nozel anywhere, so I concentrate, on all enemies. Let Nozel do what he wants, but God help him if he just ran away...! "Look at the little one, she really wants to compete with all of us. Haha." I let these magicians laugh, I don't mind. "Dark Magic: Eternal Darkness!" I yell, and a wall of shadows forms around me, pulling everyone else into the ground, but they get stuck there. Then comes the spell: "Fire Magic: Dancing Flames of the Fire King." This is the same spell as the trial a while ago, but it has a lot to offer as it is one of the strongest. The fire king's flames are the most powerful flames of fire magic. That's why Fuegoleon wanted to accept me into his order, but he has nobles. He's a Vermillion, I don't want to start any more rumours. I don't want to embarrass him and his family just because he accepted me. I didn't want to work for Rill at the time either. Rill Boismortier is my older brother and I've always stood in his shadow. He always stuck to me during the exam and before that, but even when I did, I was always just: "Rill Boismotier's sister". There was nothing more to listen to. I was nobody He is more powerful and so much more than I can ever be. Frustration and pain have been building up inside me. Rill is part of my past. He will not be a part of my present and certainly not of my future. I chose the black bull because there are no nobles there and it's a place of outcasts. An order of losers and I don't care.I was too deep in my thoughts once again not to notice some Enemy Mages breaking free of my Darkness magic. It wasn't until I was back on the ground that I woke up. But I have to realize that it's too late by then. I can't feel anything anymore. It's numb around me. This mission was supposed to be a secret mission, but it went totally wrong. It's like the magicians were waiting for us. That was a trap! But who else could have known about it? Just Julius, me and Nozel.. Could it be? Could this have been the work of Nozel? He's always gone, the only one who isn't present. Was that his revenge for earlier because of the note that the leader of the order had found and only returned to me too late? When I lost control... When I attacked my Chapter Leader... Was this just his chance to punish me and make me realize that he still had the upper hand over me and my magic? But just as I'm getting incredibly angry with Nozel again, liquid quicksilver comes at me and protects me from my attackers. I calm down but stay alert. My magic feels weak, but I still have plenty of mana left. But I feel weak, like I've used up all my mana. What is this? Was that one of the enemies.. Or was that Nozel?I can't think straight anymore and it's giving me a headache. I feel my flames wrapping around my arms. I'm conscious, that's for sure, but I can't control myself. My body doesn't obey me. I'm not losing control again, am I? But even if. I was never there in a waking state. Or am I dreaming? I'm in some kind of dream magic. Or into an illusion magic? Whatever it is, it's strong. For I move towards and touch the quicksilver magic. It holds me back, but after a few moments I can let it crumble like sand. My vision is blurry and I stagger towards the enemy mages. I watch as my flame spreads to all of the enemies and they all fall to the ground almost simultaneously. They scream, but their screams come to me only muffled. I hardly hear them and yet I can imagine how much they must suffer. just now. Because of me. I look around and see the only true enemy. The opponent of my life. Chapter leader Nozel Silva. I walk towards him and he backs away a little. His face is consumed and he builds his liquid mercury protectively in front of him. ,,Lumiel! Come back to yourself!", he calls so softly. Why should I come to myself again.. I'm..Yes, what am I actually? "Lumiel, damn it!" he calls out to me and I only half see him being pushed further and further back. He summons an eagle of quicksilver and it flies at me quickly, but I smash it. It crumbles. Nozel looks shocked and later dodges my steps. "Damn," he growls and I hear him this time...at a normal volume. I want to go towards him, but I can't move."I figured that was you, Naira. Do you need help, Nozel?", another person appears and stands between Nozel and me. I don't recognize him, but he's standing there. I recognize his voice, but I can't think why. 

Who is the man?

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