THE MARRIAGE CONTRACT | SATZU

STILL HER?

Sana's POV

I opened my eyes only to see myself alone in the bed.

What time is it? I roam my eyes on Tzuyu's room, this is the second time I have slept in here. His room looks boring though, why can't he put joy in his room?

I sat up from the bed and stretch my arms. It's already 10 in the morning, yet I am still sleepy as ever.

"Where's Tzuyu?" I stood up and fix our bed and went on the bathroom to brush my teeth before going out of the room.

I was walking near the stairs when I heard mom and Tzuyu yelling at each other. So I sneak out and hide at the railings upstairs, you can see them up here. They're in the living room facing each other... where is Tzuyu going? Why is he dressed up?

"Mom, I told you I can drive using my other hand! It's not like it's hard to drive with it!" Tzuyu said while showing his left arms move in front of his mother.

"No, Tzuyu! You stay here until you got your cast out of your arm! I don't want seeing you at the hospital injured again! Just stay here please honey." I don't know what is Tzuyu up to and why is he urging to drive alone when in fact he have plenty of drivers to take with him.

Maybe I need to confront Tzuyu as well, so I stood up but the hem of my shirt got stuck on the railings. "Argh!" shit! 

"You don't understand mo- Sana?" I smiled and awkwardly wave at them while trying to remove the hem of my shirt on the railings. "Sana, dear come over here and talk to your fiancé. He doesn't listen to me, maybe you can make him listen." After removing the hem of my shirt, I went down and walk in frown of them. "What happened?" I asked even though I already have an idea on what's going on.

"Tzuyu wanted to go out alone, look at his state Sana. Does he looks okay to drive alone to you?" Mom said as I look at Tzuyu who is rolling his eyes and sighing frustratedly. "Maybe he can, mom." they both looked at me with shock on their face. "I don't wanna intervene, but Tzuyu is not a baby anymore, he knows what's wrong and right." I don't know why I said that but I just want Tzuyu to be happy. "Tzuyu is not a baby but he's acting like one." mom said.

Tzuyu's mom will be disappointed at me, I know.

"B-but if you really don't want him to go outside alone, then I'll go with him." I added while smiling at Tzuyu.  

Without any permission, Tzuyu walked away and run upstairs that made me startled. 

I looked at mom and she just shrugged her shoulders. "I bet you still haven't seen this side of him. Tzuyu grew up spoiled by us that's why he is like that, sometimes I regret spoiling him too much. Anyway, you should eat your breakfast now Sana. Our maids prepared too many foods for you to eat because we knew that you're not the only one who's eating." Mom said while looking at my tummy. "Come, honey I'll join you." She said and walk me to Tzuyu's dining area.

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"Tzuyu dinner is ready. Come and go down now, you haven't eaten lunch you must've been hungry by now." I said while entering the room only to find out that he's drinking alcohol while sitting on the floor leaning on his bed, 2 more bottles were scattered on the floor.

"I'm not hungry, you can go eat alone." I sighed. I know that I can't force him to eat being a decisive person he is, if he says something, you won't be able to change his mind. I just hope that mom didn't left so early, maybe she can help me feed this guy.

I walk to the door and was about to get out but Tzuyu called me making me looked back at him.  He pat the floor beside him telling me to sit with him that I quickly obeyed.

We're both sitting on the floor as I look at him emptily. What's up with him? Does he need comfort right now?

Tzuyu is just staring on his beer bottle while swirling the bottle. Is he sober?

I hugged my knees while waiting for him to talk. I don't really know what's going on inside his head and I wish I can read it. I wanna know what he thinks of me whenever we're together, I wanna know how his mind works because he's too unpredictable— that made me want to explore him more.

Tzuyu lean his head on my shoulders that made me startled and sit up straight.

*Sobs*

I-is he crying?

I slowly look at him and see tears coming out of his eyes, so I took the bottle in his hand and hugged him.

"Tzuyu-ah what happened?" He must've been facing something heavy.

Tzuyu didn't respond to my question and just cried continuously.

This side of Tzuyu is new to me. I haven't seen him breaking down like this. He looks strong and independent.

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Minutes had past and we're currently eating our dinner together. After he cried, I convinced him to eat his dinner.

Since he cannot use his right arms, I am the one who's feeding him.

The reason why he cried is still unknown to me. He haven't spoke a word since then.

Is he having a hard time because of me? Is it because of the baby I am carrying? I knew that we could just have pay for an abortion, but Tzuyu didn't let me and I just accept what he wanted to do because those times were the times I am falling for him already. Now that we've been together for 3 and a half months, my feelings for him is getting deeper. I once told him "I love you" but he didn't respond to it, so I guess that he is not yet into me.

I didn't expect too much though I knew that he is just forced to marry me and take responsibility of this child I am carrying. I am not a fool to not know that. I am a person who has feelings too.

"Sana" I was so deep in my thoughts that his voice made me startled once again. "Huh?" I said blinking my eyes on him.

He sighed and held my hands that is holding a fork. "Sana listen to me." My brows furrowed as he looked at me seriously.

I stopped chewing my food and pay attention to him.

"You know about the setup we're in right?" Tzuyu asked. What setup? "I don't know how'd you fall for me that easy, but you know that I cannot love you the way you love me for now—" I pressed my lips trying to lessen the pain of his words. My heart ache a little bit, but I already expect this and just going with the flow of our life together. "—Elkie... Elkie still lingers in my heart and keeping this from you makes it harder for me. You're not the problem here, Sana. You're a very great person, a loving one as well."

A tear fell from my eyes as I couldn't help it anymore, as much as I want him to just forget Elkie, the thoughts of me being selfish appears. But isn't he selfish for doing this to me? "I just want you to give me time, Sana. I know I can love you, I know it 'cause I feel it. Your presence give me strength, and knowing that the baby is mine makes me want to change. Although, dad always tell me that Elkie couldn't go back to life anymore, it's just hard for me to forget the love I never once thought of losing. Now, I'm feeling lost, Sana. Just give me time to find myself and I hope you stay here beside me." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. My tear still keeps on falling.

Even though it'll hurt me, I'm going to wait for you to love me... Even if it takes forever to happen because I love you, Tzuyu. I really do.

I smiled at him and smiled while wiping the tears on my face. "I understand, Tzuyu. And don't worry I won't go anywhere else." I respond as he smiled at me.