Somewhere in between the smoke, two souls found each other, love and chaos.
Sometimes you need something to bright up your life a little. When you're drowning is hard to get out of that situation: your lungs fill with water, your head is empty of t...
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-What an interesting way to start the day... -I whispered to myself after seeing Axel's messages.
Leaving the phone next to me, I stared at the celling for a while; this past few days were... Hard, to say the least, and I was trying to ignore the fact that I've been near my limit, but I don't think that's possible anymore. Now everything is finally over, well, almost everything, I'm starting to notice all the side effects my actions had over me. The non-stop nightmares, the uncontrollable anxiety, my horrible mood twenty-four-seven, the dissociation to a point that it became depersonalisation... All those things have become my day to day, and it doesn't only affect me, but my inner circle too; mostly Calum and Axel. Blue had to cope with me at high school while Cal decided to stop calling to check on me after I screamed at him that I had so many things going on in my life to go to have a coffee with him, it's been two days since that and I'm not sure when I'll call him to apologize, maybe tonight. It's not like I'm mad or something, but I kinda needed the time alone.
I let out a sigh and stood up, to walk to my dressing room and look for what my friend had requested, it's been a while since the last time we got high together but I'm kinda glad he asked. Since Cal doesn't smoke this kind of things, and it's the person I spend most of the time lately, I always end up doing it alone, hiding as if it was something I should feel ashamed of doing, and I'm tired of it. Anyway, I took my little box and went with it to the living room, where I started to prepare all the things I bought for Axel and me, then left the windows, also the doors to the garden, open so I wouldn't forget to do it later. It wasn't long before when the doorbell rang and I went to greet my all-time friend, who, with a big smile, hugged me like he hadn't seen me in a month, making me giggle. The both of us went to the living area and settled on the couch:
-How you've been feeling today? -He asked, as been doing for the past week.
-Same as yesterday, I guess. This is starting to feel like a therapy session. -I said, with a funny smirk.
-I just want to make sure you're okay.
-I'll be okay the moment I see the final marks and send the applications.
-About the applications... There's something I have to tell you...
I frowned.
-You finally decided what university you like best?
-I did. -For some reason he was nervous, I could tell it by the way he was playing with his rings.
-Aren't you going to tell me?
Axel looked at me right in the eye and smiled fondly before taking my hands into his. I was confused but let him do it and waited for an answer.
-I'll be applying for Stanford. -He enunciated, happily.
I felt my heart stop for a second when I heard that name and a knot in my throat. My eyes got teary for the mere thought of not being alone in that place of nightmares, having him with me there was like a dream.
