Poems - Let your words breathe

Feel like this

It's my last semester now
But it feels like alls the same.
All my problems from before,
they combine Into another game.

It feels so pathetic to suffocate,
from all the pressure that I started with.
I can't help but think I am stupid
and my intelligence is just a myth.

I hate myself for struggling again,
having hopes I do not even crave.
But I can't help to imagine,
how you would make me feel save.

I want to run from my mind,
escape all the pain I do not understand.
I do not want to deal with all your love
even though I sometimes wish to hold your hand.

And again, I do not understand my struggles,
I don't know when to agree and when to dismiss.
I can't point out why I am in pain,
I just don't want to feel like this.