Poems - Let your words breathe

Fear

I feel so stupid for being so afraid.
So, so scared, but of what exactly?
There simply just is this pain inside my heart,
so I can't point it out directly.

I am afraid of today and tomorrow,
of failing and falling and breaking,
of loosing what can't be found again,
oh I am so scared of disappointing.

I am scared of letting go and holding on,
I can't listen to the silence nor the loud,
It really is nothing and everything at once,
oh my mouth is closed and I wish to shout.

I am too afraid to open my eyes,
I am crying, frowning, unable to speak.
I am searching for comfort, for safety,
Oh I wish i wouldn't feel so horribly weak.