Poems - Let your words breathe

I failed

I can't let go of my doubt,
of this topic my head keeps circling about,
I am so silent, yet I wish to shout,
to explain why I feel like I failed.

I feel like I was torn apart,
by feeling stupid and hearing I was smart,
it's just a deep ache right inside my heart,
a feeling telling Me that I failed.

For I couldn't live up to the expectations
that were full of silent implications,
creating pressure and setting limitations,
until I always felt like I failed.

There is a storm inside my mind,
a place to loose and a place to find,
it is so harmful, deadly, so unkind,
constantly screaming that I failed.

These thoughts keep me from being free,
from walking paths God wanted me to see
so I could find out who he wants me to be
and I could stop the thought that I failed.