⚠️ TW: sexual assault, insecurity ⚠️
I used concealer on my spot today
Hoping you'd look at me a different way
I dip-dyed my hair with the colour pink
Let me know what you think!
I coloured my lips in to make them look bigger
If you like it, should I get lip filler?
I tinted my eyelashes so you could see them well
Don't you think they just look swell?
I wore the shortest skirt I owned
Do you like the parts of me I showed?
No? But why did you use me like that?
You touched me there, doesn't that mean...
You liked me?
No?
What the fuck?
I tried so hard for you.
Well, I'll try hard for the next one too.
I wore a boob tube, do I look pretty?
Yes, please, appreciate me.
I wore my high heels today, the blisters burn
But you like them, so I'll deal and learn
I let you do what you wanted to me
Does that make you happy?
Ow! That hurts! Please stop... I'm scared...
I'm sorry for shouting, I should have prepared.
Are you angry at me? It won't happen again!
I'll make you happy... Just don't let it end.
I let you do it again and again...
It hurts but at least you're happy my friend!!
Wait, you're leaving again! Please, come back!
What did I do wrong to deserve that?
It's okay, I'll find someone else
Someone who makes me melt
I went to a party and there I found you!
When I was with you, time simply flew
Is this finally love? Or is it the alcohol?
You take me upstairs, I'm feeling bold.
You kiss my neck and I enjoy your touch
But then you choke me...
I'm no longer enjoying it as much.
I tell you to stop, but you didn't hear me
Wait! No! I'm uncomfortable, can't you see?
This isn't love, it simply can't be
And by the end of the night I'm left lonely.
So the very next morning I cut off my hair
I leave my face of makeup bare.
I wear long sleeves and I hide my body
I think I look quite pretty
I cover the bruises left on my skin
And I leave my home, without a him
And I become the 'he' that loves me
I bind my chest and I stop trying to fit in
Yes, this is me.
I hate the breasts that formed this body.
I don't care what you assholes think
But... I should probably visit a shrink.
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