Dheere Se Kho Gaye!

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Shrinkhal's POV

I could not able to sleep, and staring at the ceiling made me wonder about all mistakes I have done so far. All the memories I had in the past, worst or best, just swept away with them. I never thought I would do something like this which would affect my relationship and the love of my life would go away from me.

My throat felt dry but I had no energy to get up. I didn't even feel like doing something, it feels like someone has ripped my heart away. Just her last image of going away is rewinding in my head non-stop. I didn't realize when I felt my eyes moist and tears dripped down.

I have never felt this heartbroken before. I realize my mistake of mistreating Ishi because of my stress from work and I can never forgive myself for that.

Flashback

When we returned from Haridwar, suddenly my seasonal depression hit me. I didn't feel like doing anything but I had to work which eventually kept me burnt out all the time and I had no energy for Ishi. I felt bad for her but my agony for myself was messing up my mind.

I wasn't been able to keep up with everything. Still, I had to work my ass off hard to keep up, I guess that's the only way? I wasn't being able to tell Ishi what was up with me. I was going crazy, maybe I was falling out of love? I guess, I am.

She knew I always had commitment issues but she helped me overcome it with time but now it was coming back and throwing reality onto my face. I have always been insecure and obsessed with losing Ishi. She completes me and my life like a jigsaw puzzle. She's good with my brother and my family, what else do I need? But am I enough for her? Will she keep loving me till the end?

These thoughts completely made me go crazy and I was getting bitter towards Ishi even when I knew I was doing wrong and she loves me but still I wasn't being able to. I would stay out of the house most of the time and drinking alone and crying my heart out. It didn't help.

One day, I met Ankita for a while. She's been my only long-term girlfriend before Ishi. She had made my life a living hell and anyhow she was back again to do the same. I could never tell Ishi about her. She randomly met me in the bar one day.

"Hey! Shrinkhal!" I heard someone standing behind me while I was drowning in my distress.

"Ankita?" My eyes almost popped out, I didn't expect her. She almost made me commit suicide twice and now this bitch was back again in my life.

She sat next to me and ordered a drink for herself. Her slutty dress made me puke at her but I didn't get bothered by her.

"So, how's Ishi?" She asked me and smirked.

I was not surprised that she already knows about her. I tried to keep Ishi safe from her but I guess I am just really bad at even keep loving my girl.

"That's none of your business!" I shouted at her.

"Aw! This little puppy has become a lion now?" She commented.

She knew everything about my family and everything that had happened in my life. I was vulnerable with her but all she did was use me and throw my shit at me. I used to get treated like trash by her. She mentally tortured me. How could I tell all this to Ishi? She would have thought that I'm such a pussy.

"You better watch your mouth or else you know what else I can do." I gulped down my whiskey and almost blacked out. Yeah, I was too drunk.

I decided to go into a hotel room instead, I shouldn't let Ishi know that I am drinking these days. I paid for my drinks without looking at Ankita again. I walked out of the bar and walked by towards the hotel room as it was just a kilometre away.

When I reached my room, I didn't realize when I blacked out on the bed and woke up with Ankita next to me. I lifted my head and saw us naked. My adrenaline rushed and I ran into the restroom. I puked and sat there with my head hung low up to the wash basin.

I tried to remember what had happened but I couldn't remember anything. Ankita came in wearing my tee shirt. "Remove my tee shirt." I had no energy to do or say anything. I just want this bitch to go away from my sight.

She caressed my back and hugged me from behind, "Poor Sinku! Did you drink too much?"

"What the hell you are doing? When did you come in? Why? Just go away, please. Don't ruin my life again." I pushed her away and somehow went back and sat on the edge of the bed.

"Babe, Don't try to run away from me! You still are very much smitten by me and you don't love Ishi that's for sure. And yesterday you made my doubt clear. I'm proud of you! I love you too, baby boy."

Her giggle made me throw her out of the window. I have never loved anyone like I do to Ishi. Wait a minute what happened yesterday?

"What you do mean yesterday? What happened?" I asked as I couldn't able to remember and my mind didn't help with anything.

She laughed and sat next to me, "you gave me your body again."

A/N: Say what????? But I'm feeling very sad for Shrinkhal. I wish to kick Ankita! Anyways, I hope things are getting clear now to you. Or not? If not do lemme know 😭 see you soon Happy Monday tomorrow! 💜💫