a/n: fun fact! i actually wrote this when i was 13 but i didn't really like it so i never finished it but now, i'm actually proud of myself for writing and finishing it. this song reflects all the emotions that i experienced during the pandemic and how even though i was trying to hold it together for others, i was crumbling inside. i feel proud to say that i'm in a better place mentally now but it's still a cathartic experience to look back and reflect on the past and how i survived so here's therapist ❤️
if i told you i'm fine
please be aware that i can lie
i might say i'm alright when i'm not
i'm self conscious all the time
try to bite the bullet, but i'm broken inside
i guess the pain hurts more than it probably should
i try to forget about all my problems
because i'm too occupied trying to help them
how can i get better?
if everyone relies on me
you want me to give you therapy
but maybe i need a therapist who can help fix me
if i can fall asleep without crying
then i will no longer believe i'm dying
i was once a kid but now i'm naive
and the story begins slowly
and i feel like nobody knows me
cause now i feel bad that i've spiralled out of my head
but then you decide to call me again
i decide to help them but i'm not helping myself, ohh
how can i get better?
if everyone relies on me
you want me to give you therapy
but maybe i need a therapist who can help fix me
i'm tired and drained all the time
it's like i'm running from my past, trying to undo the crime
i'll never be that girl again
i hate the way i can lie
my tongue twisting my words like a knife
my heart is breaking inside
i can't win this fight
