a/n: this is one of my favourite songs that i have ever written and i hope you love it as much as i do! it's a song with a deeper meaning and i am so sorry if you have ever been put into a position like this (i'm always here for you <3)
thought about consequences and how it may end
never thought i'd picture your face again
knowing that we've changed
makes me feel afraid
cracked doors and cobblestones
footsteps forming as i walk
guess the truth is that i don't really know what i want?
and i thought about distant conversations
miscommunication slowly leads to suffocation
but i forgot to mention
that it's all black and white
it's not plain sailing
dry your tears
you're not homesick
truth is growing up is hard
and people assume you'll have kids by the time you're 30
convince myself that i'm not worthy
but slowly i'll get there, slowly i'm learning
the pain is just apart of the journey
second guess then conflict
makes tears run down your face
and it's like you out there wondering
how to put the pieces back into place
and you complain about work, say it's all so messed up
and i might not be there yet but somehow i've become the parent
guess a kid grows up a lot more than they originally thought
and i thought about distant conversations
watch the train enter panic station
but i forgot to mention
that it's all black and white
it's not plain sailing
dry your tears
you're not homesick
truth is growing up is hard
and people assume you'll have kids by the time you're 30
convince myself that i'm not worthy
but slowly i'll get there, slowly i'm learning
the pain is just apart of the journey
and i hate when i feel like i'm forced to forgive
i say sorry and then you'll go and blame me again
what did i do wrong? can i be enough?
and you complain that i'm acting weird but maybe it's because you took away all my best years
away from me, do you feel guilty?
cause it's all black and white
it's not plain sailing
dry your tears
you're not homesick
truth is growing up is hard
and people assume you'll have kids by the time you're 30
tell myself that i'm not worthy
but slowly i'll get there, slowly i'll be ok
the pain is just apart of the journey
