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Love at First Sight

I had a crush on this guy named Jay. Nagkagusto ako sa kaniya the first time I saw him. He is so handsome and kind.

Back when I was in 7th grade or first year high school, bumisita sila with his friends and cousins in our room. Kakilala ko ang friends niya so they introduced him to me. Medyo awkward kasi crush ko na siya that time. Hindi ko alam kung delulu ako kasi feeling ko tinitingnan niya ako ng kakaiba. Matangkad siya at napakasimple, hindi maporma. Kahit sigurong anong itsura ng dami ay susuotin niya. Pero ang g'wapo niya pa rin.

We became friends and he invited me to hang out with them kasama pa ang ibang kakilala niya on his birthday. Hindi siya naghanda ng party and uminom lang kami at tumambay sa tabi ng dagat. Puro kalokohan lang din ang ginawa namin. Mga bata pa lang naman kasi kami at puro kasiyahan lang ang alam at gusto. After that, we became closer. Naalala ko pa no'ng time na may birthday party kaming dinaluhan together. Debut iyon ng kakilala namin na girl at simpleng handaan lang naman. He served me food and kumain kami. We even shared a plate kaya medyo nakaramdam ako ng kakaiba. Pati kutsara na ginamit ko ay ginamit niya rin. Nagulat ako dahil parang indirect kiss ang nangyari. Like, hindi ba siya nailang? Kinuhanan niya rin ako ng cake at tubig. We are like lovers. We also took a picture together but unfortunately, I didn't saw it.

As the time passed by, my feelings for him had grown. His cousin even told me that he wanted to court and pursue me but he did not try. His cousin said that he thought that I am in a relationship with his guy friend that also a friend of mine. That guy, he like me but I don't like him. Pinagsabi niya na boyfriend ko siya kahit hindi naman. I am upset and sad. I like him and he like me but destiny didn't want us to be together.

A month passed. Naging distant siya sa akin at nagkaroon siya ng girlfriend. Nagselos ako, sa totoo lang. But I have no right to be jealous, ni hindi ko na nga masabi na magkaibigan pa kami. We are like strangers to each other until now. I rarely talk to him although nagkakachat kami in facebook. My feelings also disappeared. Anyway, it's been 5 years since that happened.