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twenty-six |Impatient

JJ

"Just- I don't know, JJ!" John B's hands motioned in frustration, "Tell me what happened. We've had it rough but I've just...I've never seen her like this"

My heart ached knowing I'm the reason she had done all this. I'm the reason I have to stand in front of my teary-eyed best friend and explain how I broke his little sister's heart; and how I don't know how to fix it.

"We got- I don't know, JB! We just got in this argument and I let her walk away. I know, I know it's my fault, I should've-" I smacked my hat against the chair in front of us, our whisper-yells filling the silenced room, "I shouldn't have let her leave. I'm sorry, man."

Surprisingly, John's face softened. I don't deserve his sympathy or anything, really. Jaz was just in the other room, still out cold. And her heartbreak radiates off her body and breaks me down even more. And I'm not a cliche, sappy person; this is too much.

Before he said anything, he took a long, deep, breathe. "Just talk to her, okay? I'll get the water and Tylenol. But, I'm fishing with Ward in a couple hours. Keep an eye on her?"

I can't. Something is bound to go wrong. "Yeah, 'course man."

~~

I hadn't slept a wink waiting for the sun to rise. I had a routine going; Lay down for a bit, every few minutes, I check on Jaz. Technically I didn't need to check on her every five minutes, she's not in hospice or anything, just crossed out of her mind but I couldn't help myself. I cant let myself forget what I did to her. Ever.

By the time she woke up, I was at her side. Slowly, she sat up, rubbing her eyes, digging her hair out of her face. When her eyes met mine, she lunged forward, slapping her hand over her mouth. Quickly, she ran to the bathroom. I was hot on her heals as she barely made it to the toilet, though by the time I got there, she was flushing the toilet already.

My hands touched her warm skin and the heat radiated off my body, I wanted her love back so bad. She was quick to shake my hand off her arm, getting up herself. With no words, she gave me the look of hatred I wasn't prepared for and quickly jolted out of the bathroom.

I sat alone in the living room for a while, waiting for her to come out, though she never did. I didn't expect her to, I was invading her home basically. But I wasn't going to leave her. Ever.

Even by the time Pope and Kie got here, she hasn't came out yet.

"JJ?" Pope's voice rang in my ears, "Where's Jaz?"

I mumbled something, I don't even know what.

"My dad told me what happened, I would've been there but Kie and I were in the shed, we had no idea. I'm sorry, man."

"Have you talked to her? Has anyone?" Kie asked, bracing herself to sit on the table.

I shook my head, "Nope. She was hardly even awake when your dad called and she won't talk to me. Probably ever again." I looked up to Pope who was staring at the ground, "You should talk to her. She'll listen to you."

"What does she need to hear?"

"That I know I messed up and I'm sorry?"

"Wow." Pope deadpanned, "How deep."

"I don't know, man." I threw my hands up, "Y'know, I- I can't think of the right words when I need to."

Pope sighed before setting his hand on Jaz's doorknob, "I'll see what I can do."

Pope disappeared into Jaz's room and I could think about is what she might say, is she gonna cry again? Be more angrier this time? That girl is so unpredictable.

"So, where's John B? Shouldn't he be back from Ward's by now?" Kie asked, hopping down from the table, walking over to the fridge.

"You're right." I shrugged, "I have no idea."

~~

Jaz

The knock at my door was soft but the noise filled the silence in my entire room. Immediately, I knew it wasn't JJ; He doesn't knock like that. I wished it was. No matter how totally annoyed I am, I'll always wish it was JJ.

Because it's always JJ. He just doesn't understand, clearly.

"Jaz?" Pope poked his head through the crack he made opening the door.

"Hi." I greeted with a smile. I was still in bed, hadn't brushed my hair or wiped the makeup off my face but Pope still came in with a smile and sat at the end of my bed with no judgement whatsoever. "What happened?"

I didn't think he'd get straight to point. "I don't know" I shrugged, "Yesterday, after everything that happened I just, I just didn't know what to do. And you know how I am, I just didn't want to feel how I did."

"So you went MIA, got batshit drunk, and ended up at my house?"

"Yup. Who wouldn't?"

Pope smiled, he never really asked questions to my actions, he just listened. "I'm glad your okay now, Jaz."

I'm not okay. JJ and I are over.

"Thanks, Pope." I smiled, pulling the blanked further on my lap as a breeze came through the window, "Is he still here?"

He nodded, "Do you want him to leave?"

I wanted to say never ever in a million years but I couldn't, "It's okay" was all I said.

"You should talk to him, Jaz."

"I can't. Not now. I'll end up the same way I was last night."

"What makes you think that? He knows he's the one who messed up. He wants to talk."

"What's there to talk about? He asked me to leave, so I left and now he gets to be all sad and sappy?" I am so mad at that man but I'm so mad I want him back so bad. It's hard to see where the line between mad and sad is.

"He was just angry, he probably didn't mean any of it."

"Then why didn't he follow me and just tell me right then and there?"

Pope fell silent, thinking on the question.

"I just think you two need to talk" he shrugged, sitting up from the bed, "We'll wait for you to get started on the rope thing for the well."

I nodded before he walked out and closed the door. I let out a loud groan, the last thing I wanted to do right now was get out of bed. But, the gold is on the line and my brother is depending on us. After last night, the last thing I want to do is disappoint him.

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