"And then one day we meet a person. Without even wanting it, she becomes our best story".
The story of when I met my idol, and how I went from fan to soul mate.
*This story is fiction, even if it is based on real people it is not reality*
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This weekend is the Spa Grand Prix. We planned to eat with all the drivers on Friday evening to meet up after the summer break. As usual it's a pretty classy restaurant so I decided to put on a long tight black dress with a pair of heels.
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When we arrive the others are already there. There are Carlos, Pierre, Lando and Daniel as well as their respective girlfriends. I take the menu and hide behind it. I still have to lose 10 pounds in the next 3 weeks, I know I can't eat. But how to make Charles not realize it? I know he wouldn't approve of me starving myself for a "simple job" according to him. While this is my dream. And after all it's true that I'm not thin enough so it won't hurt me.
After thinking I decide to opt for pasta, I will not eat too much and I will vomit the surplus later. This is the best option to do this discreetly.
***
The good thing about the grand prix is that since I'm never with Charles, he doesn't see that I'm not eating. Even if I'm bored for the next few weeks, I prefer that to facing him.
The race is going very well, Charles finishes 2nd just behind Carlos. He is a little disappointed but he knows that these are important points for the championship. He is first of this one but he is closely followed by Max. He will have to be careful not to be overtaken.
Once back at the hotel we put ourselves in front of a series quietly. Charles is tired and has no motivation to do anything.
Charles: Over the next few weeks there are 3 grands prix in succession and we will be making changes which means that I will have to train a lot on the simulator in Maranello. I will be very busy. But you can still come with me on the grand prix so that we can see each other a little. Emma: No I can't, I have appointments in Monaco and London with my modeling agency. Charles: Oh okay. Alright, so we'll see each other in a month... Emma: It's not ideal, but I can't sacrifice my life just to follow you on your runs, I don't want to. Charles: I'm not asking you to sacrifice your life just understand that it makes me not very happy to know that we will not see each other for almost a month. Emma: Yeah I get it. Anyway, I have to go take a shower.
I run away from the conversation. These days things are not going well and I know that he has trouble understanding that my dream is as important as his. He can be selfish sometimes.
***
The return to Monaco is quite long. We don't peel much although it's our last day together before he leaves for Maranello. We are very thoughtful, one like the other.
Arrived at home we decide to still order a good meal that we will eat alone and to put on a movie. We know that we have to put our differences aside and enjoy this last evening.
It's time to sleep. He snuggles up to me and takes me in his arms.
Charles: You know I love you Emma. I'm sorry to be a little upset it's just that I'm going to miss you. Emma: I love you too and I will miss you too.
I'm not lying, I love him and I'll miss him, but right now I feel lighter knowing he's gone. I know what I'm doing is wrong and I prefer to be alone with myself in this situation. It will be simpler.
***
Tonight is my first night alone. It's weird but nice. Tomorrow I have a shooting in Monaco. So I must not consume anything before this one in order to be sure to be at the thinnest. I decide to put on a movie to avoid thinking about my feeling of hunger and then go to bed. I pick up my phone and see that Charles has written to me.
charles ❤️: I can't wait to see you again my love. I'll try my best to keep you posted on what I'm doing. I will also try to send you small photos of my day so that it is as if you were there! i love you sleep well mon coeur
He is adorable. He's the perfect man. Even if sometimes I doubt our couple, because of his popularity, his schedule, the risk of the profession, in short, of a million things, I know that I love him and that he is incredible.
It is with this feeling of love that fills my heart, and the sounds of my empty stomach that I fall asleep.
