Happy To Live

Chapter 24

My father greeted me, I was aware he could smell Jungkook's cologne on my skin, Jungkook sat down, taking a glass of whiskey. Jenna took my hand in hers, pulling me over to her, Yoongi looked away innocently, he was in the same position as Jungkook and I. Dohwan eyes were hungry, hungry for me, but I had already been taken care of. Jungkook chuckled, watching Dohwan, taking a drink of his whiskey.

"Did you two have a nice nap?" My father crossed his arms, handing me another lavender tea, I glanced at Jenna, watching her hold in her laughter. Taking my tea for me, Jungkook stretched, pretending that his "nap" made him feel refreshed, when it was me that made him feel that way.

"I didn't know Haven was in my bed until Jenna woke us up." Yoongi turned around walking into the kitchen, swallowing his laughter, before walking back into the den.

"Haven has her own room here, you renovated it for her." Jay stared at the both of us confused.

"Oh, the paint was still fresh, so I told her to sleep in Jungkook's bed." My father was lying and allowing us to sneak around, he had no scheme, no plans. He was a happily retired man, and he was covering for us. Jungkook played along with him.

"Haven, Namjoon said you two had a fight, and you left the house upset... you look fine. Maybe all you needed was a refreshing nap." I looked at my tea wishing it was liquor, I wasn't sober enough for this. Changkyun walked in from the bar replacing my tea for my favorite wine, kissing my lips.

"Sometimes all you need is a change of scenery and nap to clear your head." Changkyun sat next to me, placing his hand on my thigh. Was I being tested? Was this Jungkook and I's make or break? "My empress, you look divine." Changkyun whispered seductively against my neck. I drank my wine as if I was drinking a beer, reaching for more. Jungkook stood up taking my glass, pouring more wine in my glass, returning it to me, grinning. He was enjoying this, he loved that our love affair was in front of their eyes, the ones that should have caught on weren't catching on. Jenna glanced at the door, watching Namjoon walk in, his eyes met mine giving me an apologetic look. I wanted to chug my fresh glass of wine, but I sipped it slowly.

"We have the plan laid out, Changkyun will take control of the meeting, everyone will listen to him." Everyone raised their glasses, agreeing with their plan. I raised my glass as another reason to drink. My glass was empty again, I left everyone alone to talk about what their plan was, their plan didn't include me. Changkyun had already made it clear for me to be ready for whatever was to come. Namjoon followed me into my bedroom, shutting the door behind him. I leaned against my dresser, watching Namjoon pour more wine in my glass, relieved he had taken the bottle from the bar.

"Babe, I hate fighting with you, I'm glad you came here where you felt safe enough to clear your head." Namjoon sat the bottle of wine down, resting his forehead against mine.

"Where are the kids?" I reached for my phone; Namjoon placed his hand over mine stopping me.

"We called the nannies; they are here playing in their wing." I sighed, knowing I didn't want to have this conversation.

"I don't want to talk; we have never been able to communicate in the way that other couples communicate." Namjoon grinned, kissing my lips gently.

"I don't want to talk either, I want my woman." Namjoon low voice sent chills down my arm.

"I'm right here, but I can't..." Namjoon shook his head turning me around, pushing my chest against the wall. I heard his pants unzip, as he pulled my pants down, exposing my ass. "You've already came baby; your period is almost over..." That was not my release, that Jungkook's mixed with mine, I had cleaned up as best as I could, given the timing, but Jungkook and I went until we couldn't leaving this as a result. Namjoon used our release as lube, slowing pushing into my ass. "Fuck...I needed this." Namjoon grunted, gently thrusting his hips, allowing me to adjust to him. I closed my eyes, giving into Namjoon's touch, our skin clapped together, moaning lowly I had come again, Namjoon leaned into me, kissing my lips hard, ramming into me, filling my ass with his warm release. "Dahm baby, you know how to make a man feel better." Namjoon caught his breath as I reevaluated my life and how I even got here. "I'm sleeping here until my period is over, all three of you need to work out your schedules." Namjoon smiled slowly pulling out of me. "There's my girl...I thought I lost her for a moment." I wanted to tell him why I was spending so much time with Changkyun and why I was breaking our routine, but I couldn't.

Everyone finally left all that remained in the house was my father, Jungkook and I. I slept in my room the first couple of nights, I needed a break. Jungkook had come home from the gym, I was sunbathing in the back yard, flipping through a magazine, snacking on the fruits my father had sent out. I could hear Jungkook and my father talking, but I couldn't understand what they were saying.

"How long has this been going on?" Jungkook smiled peacefully, staring out at me.

"How long has it been since Karly passed?" My father cleared his throat.

"Close to a year" Jungkook walked off giving him his answer, joining me on the blanket, opening his mouth for a grape. I giggled, pushing him playfully, feeding him a grape.

"How was your workout?" I flipped through the magazine waiting for an answer, Jungkook closed my magazine, directing my attention to him.

"Your love marks almost gone..." Jungkook pouted, flipping me on my back, hovering his body over mine.

"They need to be, but that doesn't mean you can't enjoy yourself while I'm here." Jungkook smirked, unbuttoning his pants.

"You are lucky you know how to keep me happy." Jungkook teased, sliding my panties to the side.

Jungkook and I enjoyed the weather and each other throughout the day, we ended the night in his bed, I remained in his bed my last few nights of my stay. I found it difficult to balance my relationships recently, but I didn't find it difficult to maintain Jungkook's and I's. Our relationship was far from new, but it was newer than my others. I hoped that was why it was easy for him and I.