Happy To Live

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

The drive to our summer home was peaceful and quiet, I needed to take the kids here, to get away from all the traffic coming into the house, I had gotten used to going rogue, and the meant leaving in the middle of the night with all the kids. I didn't trust who was walking in, and I didn't want anyone to see my pregnancy as a weakness. Joy and Tae were made aware of where I was traveling, they weren't too far behind me. We had rebuilt my home to become a safe house, to the naked eye, which was great for all of the children and mothers we had in our growing family. I wasn't surprised when Dae alerted his father where we were going. Changkyun never questioned my reasons, I felt unsafe if I felt unsafe then I knew my children weren't meant to be there. Joy and Tae felt the same way, I knew Jenna would follow us eventually, but she wanted to make sure no had caught on to what we were doing.

"I can't believe you left like that Haven." Tae helped carry our bags into the fortress.

"It was for the best..." I looked away avoiding eye contact, I wasn't going to feel guilty for following my instincts.

"Honey, leave her be there were strangers in her house, she is almost 9 months pregnant, if she feels stressed, she could go into labor before her princess is ready to come out." Joy stood by my side, taking up for me.

"Please tell them soon, especially since you are a few weeks away." Tae tried to reason with me, but I wasn't budging.

The remainder of our stay was fun, the kids enjoyed the time they were spending with their cousins, Changkyun would call and check on me constantly, I would send Jungkook daily photos of my small bump. I couldn't believe I was full term and I look as if I was 5 months pregnant. I was thankful, bouncing back after this pregnancy would be easy. The weeks turned into a couple of months; I had our beautiful daughter Bria came into the world on a beautiful day. It gave me hope that we could get through this. I called Jungkook telling him his daughter was born, but if he was to come, he couldn't be followed.

"Babe, you don't trust anyone to come with me?" Jungkook paused waiting for me to decide.

"I trust you and Changkyun, Namjoon will bring his team of security that hasn't been vetted thoroughly, Dohwan is already on the way, he has to update his security here." I didn't like leaving Namjoon out, but all he wanted to do was control me in his own way.

"Changkyun should stay, so it's not obvious, knowing Dohwan he probably told everyone he had work to do, but Namjoon needs to know soon, he is anxious to see our daughter." I realized I responded better to Jungkook and Changkyun that I did with my other spouses.

"I will leave the baby with you, and I will go to him, after I am healed, and back on birth control." Jungkook sighed, accepting my compromise.

Kito ran into Dohwan's arms as soon as he walked through the door, Dohwan gave him a genuine smile, amazed of how much our children had grown in the months I had been away. I held Bria in my arms, wishing out of all the men I had given children too, Dohwan was one of them. He deserved this; I knew that was what stopping him giving me all of his devotion. I had him, but I didn't have what I craved most out of him.

"Daddy Dohwan, we missed you!" Kito squealed hugging him tight.

"I missed you all, tell your mother to come back home." Dohwan smiled, putting Kito down. The kids pulled Dohwan away hogging him for his first couple of hours. I chose not to breast feed Bria, I was already drained emotionally, I didn't want to lose my mental stability. Joy had become Bria's nanny for the time being.

"Honey, is there anything I can get you?" I turned around, layering my bra with a wrap, pressing down my breasts, preventing my breast milk to continue.

"No, I'm okay, I was going to go work out...I hate the way I "Dohwan walked towards, picking me up, I wrapped my legs around his hip, as he carried me to bed, laying with me.

"Don't you dare...you just had your fourth child; you need to rest I will block off the gym if you go anywhere near it." Dohwan scolded me, gently kissing my lips.

"I have to get back and..." Dohwan kissed me again.

"You have to heal, I will personally work out with you in a couple of weeks, until I know you are rested you aren't doing a thing." I frowned, reaching for the remote. Dohwan kept his promise, we were spending more time together, finding a different level of intimacy within our relationship.

The kids wanted to be close to us, so they decided to make beds in the floor. Dae and Zuri took turns feeding Bria, Kito would lay in my arms, watching his sibling help take care of his new little sister. Dohwan kissed my head watching everyone work together.

"Dohwan, do you remember when we miscarried?" Dohwan nodded, staring at me.

"Do you want to try to have a baby? "I asked him genuinely.

"You want to plan your next child with me and not Namjoon?" I pressed my lips, waiting to feel guilty, but I didn't. Dohwan had sacrificed so much for us, for our relationship. He had stayed clean for years, I knew his fertility was fine.

"I do..." I whispered into his ear.

"I would love to start our future together." Dohwan kissed my lips lovingly.

"We needed this." I smiled listening to the kids fall in love with Bria.

"I'm sorry it took me so long to get her, but I am here Haven, the clubs are shut down, I turned them into parking lots while you were away. My bank is solely connected to our companies, I took care of any leak, and any mole on my end. I don't want anything standing in the way of our future." I blushed watching Dohwan proclaim his love for me, for his family, for his future child.

"Daddy Dohwan, we forgive you." Dae climbed over us, wrestling with his other father. I moved out of the way allowing all of the kids to play with him. I felt like I was gaining one and losing another.

Jungkook showed up in the middle of the night, I could hear him rocking our daughter in the corner while I slept lightly. Dohwan rolled over to his side, watching Jungkook marvel at his daughter.

"Hey, what time did you get in? Dohwan smiled, watching the two bond, whispering softly.

"An hour ago, I watched everyone sleep for a while, and I noticed Bria was stirring." I could hear Jungkook's happiness.

"How bad is it over there? Is your father coming here soon?" Jungkook sighed, continuing to rock in the rocking chair.

"Our immediate circle is slowly coming over here, Haven was right to leave when she did...it's not safe. Our home is safe, but the people walking in aren't." Jungkook kissed Bria laying her back into her crib, carefully stepping over the sleeping children on the floor, moving to the other side of me.

"Does Namjoon still think she left because of her pregnancy?" Dohwan asked, rolling over to the other side.

"Yes, when Haven returns, he will feel better." Jungkook's cologne overtook my senses, I sleepily opened my eyes, looking for an opening, Jungkook moved arm under the pillow, pulling me against his body.

"I hope that we can keep our family dynamic going." Dohwan rested his hand on my hip, as sleep crept in for the both of them.

"As long as we all want the same thing." Jungkook yawned kissing my head, we all fell into a deep sleep, I didn't move out of Jungkook's arms, Dohwan didn't move away from me. My parents leaving me this home was the biggest blessing. I may have been their safe haven, but this place was mine.