Behind Books

6. Jealousy 😅

Authors note:
Hi guys, I just wanna let you know that I personally have never had an anxiety, or panic attack, and gratefully never really get anxious.

Everything I say in this story, is based off of research I've done. I have researched the topic of mental health a lot, because it's honestly really interesting to me, and in the future I want to be a psychologist lol.

But my research isn't from school, it's from google. So if any of my information is wrong, please let me know!

Okay back to the story.

(Lily's Pov)
The next day
After yesterday, I've been really anxious about going back to DADA. I didn't wanna face that class again, face Snape.

I really didn't wanna see Draco.

Luckily I have potions first. My anxiety about seeing Draco will be over with, before going to DADA.

I walked into potions, but didn't see Draco yet.
I sat down, and got my supplies out.

Then I saw Draco walk in. I took deep breaths to stable myself. I tried staying calm.

Then I noticed Draco was walking towards me.
Oh god I can't take his insults right now.

Especially after yesterday, he probably has so much more to say.

He kept on getting closer, and I grabbed the edge of the desk with my hands.

Please turn around, please.

I looked down at my pencil, and saw his shadow over me. If I don't look, he'll go away.

I started shaking my leg, and he sighed.

"You can relax, I'm not here to make fun of you."

I looked up at him, and he sat in the chair next to me. He turned to face me, but I stayed forward.

"Lily, I'm really sorry."
"About what? Ruining my presentation, embarrassing me, or giving me an anxiety attack?" I said.

I turned to face him, and he had this look of guilt in his eyes.

"All of it. I didn't realize how bad it was.
When you had you're anxiety attack I freaked out. Then I saw the way Lucas helped you. I get why you love him so much."

"He's good to me." I said.

"He was good to you, at that moment.
That doesn't mean he's good overall.
Come on, I could do that." He said.

"No you can't. Lucas gives me comfort.
I'm not gonna calm down if someone I hate, tries to comfort me." I said.

"That's besides the point. What I'm saying is that I get it. You having anxiety isn't a joke, I'm sorry for brushing it off." He said.

I didn't say anything.

"Listen, I'll back off. If you have another presentation, I'll stay quiet." He said.

"Okay." I said weirded out.

"And if there's a time where I pick an argument, and you're anxious, or just not feeling it that day, tell me. I'll leave you alone." He said.