Behind Books

36. Internship 🍁

(Liliana's Pov)
I got it.
I fucking did it.

The internship, I got in. I received the letter congratulating me today.

I get to work with magical creatures, and gain all this knowledge, and experience. And it's all paid for.

So why do I feel so shitty?
I know exactly why.

I have to leave everything behind, everyone behind. That was the one flaw in the internship.

It's in Canada.
That's all the way across the world from here.

And it starts July 5th.
The last day of school is June 30th.

I have less then a week from then to pack up, to say goodbye. Then I'll be off.

But more importantly I'll be alone. I won't have my parents, or Amelia, or Draco.

I'll be by myself.

I've dreamt of this internship. Spending all my time working with animals is a dream.

But now that I have it, it's difficult. Of course I wanna take it but I don't know if I'm ready.

This program lasts a year, which is incredibly long to be away from home. What if I get home sick, then what?

God I'm stressed. I need to take an anxiety pill before I have a breakdown.

I opened my cupboard, when I heard a knock on the door. Shit.

I quickly hid the letter under my pillow, and opened the door.

Draco stood there with his hands in his pocket.
"I've got something for you." He said.

"Draco I'm super stressed right now. If this is a joke, or something unserious please don't."

His face dropped, and he pulled his hand out of his pocket.

"What's wrong?" He asked.
"I don't wanna talk about it." I said.

"Liliana, you can talk to me about anything."
"I know, but this is something I need to deal with on my own." I said.

"Does it have to do with Lucas?" He asked.
"No it doesn't involve anyone. It's personal."

"Can I help in any way?" He asked.
"No." I said.

"So do you want me to leave?" He asked.
He had a touch of sadness in his voice.

"Yeah, I'm sorry." I said.
"Oh okay. Text me if you need anything."

(Draco's Pov)
That was really weird, I'm a bit worried.
I guess this date can wait until she's okay.

I wouldn't wanna give her the pressure of dating me on top of whatever happened.

I walked down the hall, and saw Amelia.

"Draco Malfoy were you in my dorm? I swear to god it better not smell like sex in there. I saw the way you marked Lily, I know how intense it can get." She said.

"No, don't worry." I said.
I went to walk away, but she grabbed my arm.
"Hey what's wrong? No laugh, no smart remark.
You just brushed that off." She said.

"Somethings wrong with Liliana. She's off."

"Oh. I'll go talk to her." Said Amelia.
"Please do. And let me know what's wrong if she tells you." I said.

"Got it." Said Amelia.

(Amelia's Pov)
That was strange.
I walked into my dorm, and Liliana was opening her bottle of pills.