Unfortunately Lucky (bxb)

Chapter 14 [Discretion Advised]

Warning, this chapter explores sensitive topics such as self-harm and suicidal ideation. If you feel uncomfortable reading about either of those please consider skipping this chapter entirely. Thank you all for reading!!!

Chris's POV

"Y'all irrational and impulsive as fuck bro, WHAT?!" Trey gawked at me as I regaled to him everything I had done with CJ. We were at his house playing video games as usual. It's been almost a week since the incident and I haven't seen him around school since. I know I shouldn't, but I still kinda miss him.

"Are you fucking serious Chris?! Why didn't you tell me about this sooner?!"

"It really wasn't that bad, and I'm fine now I promise..." I tried to reassure him.

"He pulled a goddamn gun on you, Christopher!! How can you be so carefree about all this?! You're not fine!! He could've killed you!!" He looked at me like the word idiot was written across my face.

"I don't think he was actually going to kill me. Deep down he's just very misunderstood. He's really sad, and he lashes out a lot in an attempt to hide his feelings..."

"I don't give a fuck about his feelings!! Why are you excusing his behavior??! Are you in love with him or something?? Is that it? Because I'm seriously failing to understand you here. Do you not see how fucked up this shit is?! Get a fucking grip, Christopher!"

"Listen, it's complicated Trey... He's not just someone I can get over like that..." All I could do was shrug in response.

"I'm not asking you to get over him, I'm asking you to see how fucking deranged he is. That's not normal. He's not good for you or your mental health. I've known you for a long time, Chris... I don't think I could handle another situation where you start cutting again–"

The moment he mentioned it, I saw red, "Trey stop! Just fucking stop!! Are you serious?! You know to never bring that up around me. I get that you're mad at me, but trying to use my own triggers against me? Why would you do that? That's low, really fucking low for you." 

"I'm sorry okay?! I got too caught up in the moment. " He inhaled and then exhaled sharply. " That wasn't right of me to say. It was the first thing that came to mind and it kinda just slipped out. Truth is I'm just scared for you man... I don't think you understand how vulnerable you are. I mean, ever since middle school I've seen people try to exploit you, take advantage of you, hurt you... If I wasn't there for you, who knows how you would've ended up? After what happened between you and Darrien- not that that was your fault obviously- but the amount of damage he did to you, Chris... I know you're still not over it. You're not healed. I'm just afraid CJ might cause even more damage..." He shook his head and began pacing the room.

"You need to relax. I get that you're concerned for me and all, but I can protect myself. I don't always need your help. I'm not the same kid from sixth grade T. And don't bring Darrien ever again, he's irrelevant."

He shook his head rapidly, "Nah, you're wrong. I'm not trying to talk down to you or anything, but what exactly did you do when CJ almost attacked you? What did you do every time your ex came back? Or what about the time you were attacked in the park-"

"Okay, I get it!!! Why are you reminding me of all these things as if I don't have to relive them in my own head every single day?! You say you care about me but all you're doing is hurting me... I'm not some innocent little boy that needs coddling, it's time for me to try and stand up for myself and face the consequences alone!" I yelled at him in pure frustration. 

"And what if you can't handle that Christopher?! Then what?? I've always protected you, why're you trying to change that now? I feel like you're trying to distance yourself away from me. You're not listening to me, you won't allow me to protect you, it's like you don't want me to lead-"