Her Broken Book

chapter 6

Sorry for grammatical errors and misspelled words and typographical errors

Please do not take it seriously
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"Her broken book" (chapter 6)
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"Nanay? Do you cry?"

"Anak, wala namang taong hindi umiiyak eh"

"Why do you cry?" Tanong nya ulit

"I don't know? Because I'm hurt?"

"Why are you hurt?"

"Anak, maraming bagay, maraming dahilan, alam kong hinding hindi mo pa maiintindihan yun"

"But i can? Sabi ni teacher matalino daw ako" napatawa ako at niyakap sya

"You are but you're too young to understand my problems"

"But I'm not a baby anymore, i can understand things already"

"You do? You do understand small things anak, not nanay's problems okay?"

"Okay but i don't see you cry? You're brave? I thought?"

"Brave? Matapang? Syempre hindi, mahina ako sav"

"Why i didn't see that?"

"Kasi ayokong makita nyo, i cried anak many many times but not in front of you three, at hindi ko kailanman gugustuhin yun, i don't want you seeing me like that, hindi ako pwedeng maging mahina sa harap nyo nakikita nyo eh, nararamdaman nyo, hindi ko kaya"

"But? It's hard to keep the pain inside?"

"Hmm? You've tried?"

"N-no"

"Savannah Kzandra?"

"I did" sabay yuko nya "but that was a long time nanay, i forgot about it"

"Anak, bakit naman hindi mo sinasabi?" Tanong ko

"Kasi i forgot na ehh, but it's okay i will never gonna do it again"

"Minsan kasi sav, keeping that pain inside is the right thing, but don't do that okay? Malay mo nanay can help"

"I can help with yours too?"

"You always helps nanay with everything sav" binaba nya yung mga laruan nya at niyakap ako
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"Did you gave this to sav?" Sabay pakita ko sa kanya ng singsing na alam kong galing sa kanya

"Regine?" Ngumiti ako "i did" i gave him back the ring he gave to sav

"I know that's already yours, and it's yours i can't keep it, just get this please" agad nya namang kinuha yun

"I just gave it to her for you to know that sav didn't talk to stranger, sabi nya ayaw mo daw makipag usap sya sa stranger eh, madaldal na pala yung savannah ko? How about callie?"

"Ah? Si Gab? Madaldal rin, mas madaldal pa sa ate nya"

"But they didn't know me?" Umiling ako

"Hindi sila interesadong kilalanin ka, maayos na kami sa buhay namin, masaya na ako sa meron ako"

"Nag tanong ba sila tungkol sakin?" Umiling ako ulit

"Kontento na sila sa anong meron sila, hindi ko na nagawang banggitin pa ikaw sa kanila, isa pa kung sasabihin man kita sa kanila sigurado pati paano mo kami iniwan masabi ko, mauna na ako baka hinihintay na ako ng mga bata sa bahay" agad rin akong tumalikod at naglakad palayo, ni wala syang kaalam alam na nanjan si kiel, paano? Eh umalis sya? Agad? Ng hindi ko man lang alam ang dahilan, ng hindi pa ako handang harapin ang mundo?
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"Oh eli? Kamusta? Umuwi na pala si mike?" Tanong ko ng nakita ko syang kasama si mike sa likod nya

"Ay te? Oo eh nung isang linggo pa"

"Hi, Reg" bati ni mike

"Hi mike, did you missed eli that's why you're here?" I asked

"Yeah did"

"Aysus, make sure you didn't have someone waiting for you back there ah? Nako i will kill you"

"Of course not, i love your sister so much i will never leave her"

"I did heard that ah? Make sure you will never ever leave her"

"I will never" sagot nya

"Ate, tinatakot mo naman ehh!" Tumawa ako

"Ate Elisse? Can we go to the bookstore first? I'm gonna look for that one book who caught my attention"

"Me too ate Elisse, i need something there too tho?"

"Oh by the way, ate this my brother and sister, athena and jio, guys my ate"

"H-hello"

"Oh hello, ate eli it's getting dark papagalitan nanaman tayo ni pappa nyan"

"Oh yeah, we'll go ahead te, see you again soon babye! Ikiss at iyakap mo ako sa mga babies ko ah? Babye!" Agad rin naman silang umalis sa harap ko, sinundan ko naman sila ng tingin hanggang sa nawala na sila sa paningin ko, she started to change a bit pero sana hindi tuluyan
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Hinaplos ko yung tatlo tsaka lumabas ng bahay para mag pahangin sana, napaupo ako sa gilid habang tanaw na tanaw ko yung bilog na bilog na buwan, napatingin ako sa pader na inaakyat ni eli noon, malay mo? Hanggang ngayon hindi ko parin naiintindihan bakit kailangan nilang umalis at iwan ako?

"Nanay" Dali dali kong pinunasan yung luha ko at tiningnan sya

"Sav?"

"You let us sleep first bago ikaw umiyak? Are you hiding? Why don't you cry in front of us" tumawa ako tiningnan sya

"Anak kasi, ayoko naman pati sa mata nyo mahina si nanay, mahina si nanay oo pero ayokong makita nyo pati yun, para kahit man lang dun alam nyong malakas si nanay, sinusubukan ko"

"You're strong nanay, diba sabi mo kahit na mahina basta alam  mo sa sarili mo na strong ikaw, strong ikaw?" Niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit na mahigpit

"Sav, i don't know my life without you?"

"What are doing here? Waiting for tita eli?" Napatingin ako sa kanya at tumango

"But that will never gonna happen, hindi na mababalik si tita eli"

"Why?" Bakit nga ba?

"K-kasi masaya na sya? May sarili na syang pamilya na sigurado siguradong mapapasaya sya"

"But I'm here nanay? Sav didn't want to leave" sinandig nya yung ulo nya sa balikat ko kaya tiningnan ko lang sya at niyakap

"Mahal na mahal kita, mahal na mahal ko kayo" tiningnan nya ako at ngumiti

"I love you, nanay so much" kung may mga taong hindi ko kayang mawala sa buhay ko sila yun, palagi naman sila yung lakas ko eh, sila nalang naman talaga yung naiwan sakin eh, i only have sav, gab, and eze, sila nalang. Pero kontento na naman ako eh, wala na akong mahihiling pa, walang wala na.
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See yah at next!