You Make It Easy || Nikki Sixx

Chapter 12

     Instead of Nikki and I having a day out, we spent the night out too. We ended up on Concrete Beach with our legs hanging over the water and ice cream cones in our hands. "So when did you decide to move to Hollywood?"

     "Well I was around your age-"

    "Ew don't say that, you make it sound like you're talking to a child" I cut him off.

     Nikki giggles "I was and I'm not sorry." he smiled. "Anyway, It was around 1975... I think I was 17 at the time."

     "Where did you move from?"

     "Uhhh.." Nikki laughs with nervousness. "I moved around a lot as a kid. I was actually born in San Joes but was living in Seattle, with my mom, before I finally left." He gazed into the night sky over the lake. "She wasn't around that much either. I was sent off to live with my grandparents more often than not. My Nona is an amazing cook and an absolute sweetheart. I would give anything and everything for her. She was the one to actually raise me, instead of the woman I'm forced to call my mother." Nikki scoffed. "And the worst part wasn't even that she left and went off with so many guys and didn't show up for days- it was that she denies it to this day. She tells everyone that she loves me and never left- but you know what, SHE DID" Nikki raised his voice and ended up crushing his ice cream in anger.

     I watched the ice cream fall right into the lake as Nikki never made eye contact with me "I uhh.. I think you dropped something..." I purse my lips.

     Nikki sighs "Sorry, I just get a little pent up when I talk about it."

     "I don't mind. It's better to let it out instead of keeping it down."

     "Ya know I've yet to meet your mom.. I'm sure she's much better than mine." Nikki laughs.

     "She'll like you don't worry about her. Usually, my parents leave for work earlier in the morning and we wake up at noon" I giggle. "Nikki... I get it... surely not as well as you do but, I have things that set me off too..." I say trying to console him.

     "Oh yeah? Tell me about it.." he looks into my eyes.

    "Ahhh no no no no no" I say through a nervous laugh.

    "Come on" he whines.

     "It's nothing- you'd think it's stupid anyway" I shake my head.

    "No, now have to tell me" he playfully punches my arm making me smile.

     "I-" I paused.. For a long time. I thought about it but I couldn't do it. "Nikki I can't. I'm sorry. I would rather just take it to the grave- I just really can't say it... I'm sorry"

     "That bad?"

     "It's pretty bad..."

     "You don't need to tell me." he paused for a while too "There are just things- so horrific, so awful-... that you just can't tell anyone. There are things I know I will never tell anyone. They don't deserve to be put through that..." he looked down, biting his lip.

     "That bad?" I asked.

     "You... have no... idea..." he looked at me with sorrow in his eyes then back down at the water. My hand reached for his, I rubbed the top of it with my thumb.

    "Nikki..." I lift his chin to look at me "I really, really like being with you.. And I want to be the one you go to when you have a bad night or need someone to let off steam to or... just anything... If I'm being honest, you're my first boyfriend, and I don't know how to do this, and I know we really just met but I think I-..." I pause

    Nikki smiled, knowing exactly what I want to say "I'm going to make you say it first." he giggles.

     "How about you say it first? After all, you were the one who told me you missed me when you flew in." I smirk.

     "Damn right I missed you." he laughed.

     "Missed me, missed me, now you gotta kiss me-"

     And that he did. I loved that kiss and I loved everything about him too "Ari.." he pulled away.

     "Nikki..." I bit my lip.

     "I love you.."

     "Made you say it first" I winked

     "I will push you into the fuckin lake right now" he laughed.

     I looked back into his eyes "...I love you too Nikki" I wrapped my arms around his neck and went in for a deep kiss that had his back to the ground. If it weren't the middle of Chicago, where everyone could look out their windows, we probably would have done it right then and there. We decided it was definitely time to get out of the city and go back home. The ride was quiet but not in a bad way.

     "So... I'm your first boyfriend huh?"

    "My first real boyfriend- I don't wanna talk about it" I cross my arms

    "I'll make you talk about it" he declares.

     "And how's that?" the banter begins.

     "You'll find out when we get home" he slides his hand onto my thigh and moves his thumb in a circle trying to tease me.

     Later on that night, we continued our exchange in a more private setting. Risky as it was, Nikki made sure I struggled to be quiet. If I didn't love him before, I sure as hell did now. Instead of being tired and falling asleep, I wanted to spend every conscience second I could with him. "I want you to come to LA with me." Nikki said as I lay on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.

     'When?" I ask

     "We can leave Friday morning?"

     "How long will we be gone?" I ask, shifting my position so that I can look at him.

     "However long you want" he smiled.

    "Are you proposing that we run away together?" I say with a botched transatlantic accent.

     "Maybe I am madam." he replied in the same way.

     "Be careful by what you propose, Mr Sixx... I tend to be impressionable by the beautiful." I smile

     "Are you now? Maybe we should do a little more than run away." he smirked.

     "You're playing with fire now." I giggle

     He kissed my hand and whispered in my ear "I don't mind getting burned."
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