Alluring - JJ Maybank Fanfic

The Dark Forest: Breakdown

Trigger Warning: Suicide attempt while pregnant, mental breakdown, emotional distress.

This chapter is extremely emotional, if you want to skip the rough parts then go to Willow's POV towards the middle of the chapter.  

JJs POV

"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME." Willow slams her hands into my chest, making me stumble backwards into Pope, "Don't.. don't touch me."

I put my shaky hands up in the air, my heart beating a mile a minute, watching the love of my life fall apart, "Willow, please just.. just take a deep breath, okay?"

She frantically shakes her head, stumbling to the side, almost falling onto the pull out couch, "I'm.. I'm fine, I'm breathing, see," She takes a staggered breath, her eyes rolling back a little, "I don't want to be t-touched," A sob escapes her mouth, "No one cared about.. about my b-baby tonight." 

"We do care about Emmy," I soften my tone, eyeing our friends watching with horrified expressions, "I promise I was thinking about you and Emmy, I fucked up and I was reckless, I'll admit that, but that doesn't mean I don't love both of you and care about you." 

"NO," She screeches, making me flinch, "You don't f-fucking care, JJ, you went off and fucked Kiara today, almost didn't make it back to the ferry in t-time. You've been fucking her since the island, m-maybe even.. even before that. Why didn't you tell me sooner?" She wildly looks between me and Kie, "You didn't h-have to hurt me.. me like this. I know she's better than me, I would have backed off if you told m-me you loved her instead." 

"Baby, I did not cheat on you, I could never sleep with someone else." I try to reach out for her but she stumbles backwards, "Willow, please believe me, there is nothing going on between me and Kie." 

She shakes her head again, "You told me.. me that you n-needed her." 

I furrow my brows, "When did I do that? Because I don't remember ever telling you that I needed someone other than you and our daughter."

"I-I wanted to go with you t-tonight, but you said you needed her, not me." She sobs, "I-I have.. have to be with you or-or you'll want HER." 

"Princess, you needed to stay with Emmy. I only needed Kie because she was helping me stop the train, it wasn't like that." 

"Willow," Kie speaks up from behind me, emotion clear in her tone, "I'm sorry I caused this, but I never wanted JJ like that, I was only flirting and kissed him because of Rafe. JJ and I have never had sex and we never will."

"DON'T TALK TO ME." She grabs an old DVD case from the book shelf and throws it at us, hitting the floor near Kie's feet, "He.. he wants you, not.. not me, so just don't talk to me. It.. it hurts too too much." She grabs the shelf when she starts to fall over, I step forward, ready to grab her, "NO NO NO NO," She backs away, clutching her chest as she goes, "S-S-STOP."

"Willow, please," I cry, "please calm down." 

Emmy starts to scream in Sarah's arms, clearly scared of Willows breakdown, she crosses the room, her arms stretched out for her, "M-mama's here." She pries Emmy from Sarah's arms, ignoring our protests, "I'm.. I'm sorry, Em." She staggers away, slurring her words as she starts to sing.