Alluring - JJ Maybank Fanfic

My Druthers: Emotional

While we continue to drive home from Popes mee-maws nursing home, tears steadily run down my face. I avoid everyone's stares and pinch my arm, trying to distract myself from my stupid insecurities, so I lean into the van wall and close my eyes to rest, but the pain radiating across my belly is making it hard to sleep. 

I heard shuffling and a few complaints from my friends, and then hands on me, when I look to see who it is, JJs concerned eyes stare back at me, "Baby, what's wrong?"

"No, leave me alone." I push his hands off of my leg.

His face turns to shock, "Wait, are you mad at me?"

"Go sit somewhere else," I turn away to look out the window, "I don't want to talk to you right now."

"Don't shut me out, Princess." He tries turning me but I brush his hands off of me, "Why are you mad at me? I didn't do anything."

I scoff, "Says you, JJ. King of shutting people out."

"Seriously? I fucking apologized for that a long time ago, baby, don't use it against me now that things are fine." He pulls my arm so I have to look at him, "What is wrong with you right now?"

"Things aren't fine." I flicker my eyes around the van to see everyone trying to pretend they weren't listening to us, "You want to know what's wrong with me?"

"Yeah, I do." He slips his hands into mine.

"I'm in a relationship with you." The words slip out before I could stop them. 

Everyone's jaws drop while they stare at us. I felt like throwing up when I saw JJs face drop into the saddest face I've ever seen him wear.

"You don't want to be with me anymore?" He quietly asks, dropping my hands before he scoots away from me.

"Correction, you don't want to be with me." I tell him, "But you stay with me because you feel like you have to.. since you knocked me up."

He furrows his brows, "Uh, that's not true. Where did you get that from?"

"You go against the shit we talk about. If something is dangerous or going to earn you jail time, then you're right there hoping something happens to you. It's like you're trying to find a way out of being there for me and the baby."

"That's not true, Willow." He hisses, "I'm sorry I tried busting you out of jail, but I couldn't handle the idea of living my life without you. I promise I am not doing anything dangerous or trying to get away from you."

"Do you not remember what you and John B were just talking about? Then you started whispering to him so I couldn't hear what your stupid dangerous plan is."

JJ sighs, "No, baby, it wasn't something that's going to get me in trouble. It's fine." He scoots back over to me and grabs my hands, "Princess, I can't live without you or the baby. Please don't think that I could. I don't ever want to lose you again. Life without you was horrible."

I feel like an idiot for being upset, I know he wants me, I know he's excited for the baby.

I burst into tears and lean into his chest, "I'm sorry. I'm just hormonal, it makes me emotional, and I'm overwhelmed with being back in the real world."

I earned a few laughs but JJ just sighs lowly and holds me tight, "You're my world. You and the baby."

John B clears his throat, "Uh, we're here."

I pull away from JJs chest and glance outside to see we were back at Heyward's shop. He cups my face and kisses me, by the time we pull away we're the only one's left in the van.