A Kinky Marriage Arrangement

50. Confession

Irene's POV:

I am so mad right now I can kill somebody. How dare he! How fucking dare he!!! That too, right in front of me!

I punched the mirror in front of me shattering it into pieces. Blood gushed out from my knuckles but I didn't care.

My baby boy was hurt. My love was assaulted. There was nothing more painful for me than knowing that I couldn't stop it.

I so badly wanna punch every single teeth out of that bastard's mouth. Then I want to cut his dick and shove it up his own ass.

A smirk formed on my face as I thought about how Walter would look in such a situation.

But then, my gaze fell on one of the broken mirror pieces. I saw my reflection in it and all emotion drained from my face.

I looked like a psychopath. What am I even thinking? What is wrong with me!?

I took deep breaths to calm myself down. I counted till 10 like how my therapist had told me to. Phew! Now I look normal again.

Oh yeah, I didn't tell you did I? When I was 16, there was a boy who used to bully me. One day, I got fed up and punched him.

The punch turned into a fight and the boy landed in the hospital. I didn't even know how I did it.

The school counselor requested my father to show me to a therapist and we found out I had anger issues. I had no clue when I developed those.

I have been taking medicines ever since. It is very low now and it rarely happens. But when it does, I can go crazy.

I even tried to stab dad one time because I was mad at him. That time, I was guilty. But now I wish I had stabbed him.

Callum doesn't know about my anger issues and I don't want him to. I don't want him to fear and leave me.

I have fallen in love with him and I am not going to deny it anymore. But I still don't know if he feels the same. That is why I need to hide it.

I also don't want to hurt him because I am angry. That is the reason I left him downstairs and rushed up here. He cannot see me like this.

I took my pills and sat down on the bed taking deep breaths. Calm down Irene, calm down.

Once I was sure I wouldn't lash out again, I headed downstairs. I found Callum in the gym. But his mind seemed to be somewhere else.

"Callum?" I called softly. He flinched a little when he heard my voice which broke my heart. "I'm not gonna hurt you" I said.

I knew my voice sounded hurt. But I couldn't help it. My emotions were betraying me and I just couldn't stop it. "Are you okay?" I asked.

I heard a light sniffle come from him and I immediately rushed up to him. I gasped when I got a good look at his face.

"Callum" I said, my eyes watering. He looked so broken. The sparkle in his green eyes was gone. His smile had dropped and his nose was red.

I immediately pulled him into a hug. "You're okay, you're fine. I promise no one's gonna hurt you" I said and kissed his head.

He buried his head in the crook of my neck and cried for a while. I just held him so tight to me. I was never letting him go.

"Will you leave me?" he asked suddenly. Huh? "Why are you asking such a stupid question?" I said, annoyed by such a thought.

"Y-you saw what W-Walter did to me. I-I am d-disgusting. Do you not w-want me anymore?" he said between sobs.

My heart shattered into more pieces than the mirror upstairs. I cupped his cheeks and looked directly into his eyes.

"Never, and I mean NEVER will I ever leave you. You are NOT disgusting and I will never think that about you" I said.

His eyes watered again and he pulled me into another hug. "Why are you so good to me?" he sniffled in my neck.

"Because that's what you deserve. You deserve all the happiness in the world and I'm gonna give it to you. I love you Callum. I love you so much."

I didn't even realize what I was saying before the words left my mouth. Callum's sobs suddenly stopped and the room felt silent.

He pulled back and looked directly in my eyes. "You love me?" he asked in no more than a whisper. I couldn't hide it anymore; I didn't want to.

"Yes I do. I love you with everything I have. My heart belongs to you and so does my soul. I love you Callum Blackwood. I love you more than you'll ever know."

We stayed quiet after I confessed. He was still staring into my eyes intently and I couldn't tear my gaze away. Oh god! Did I say it too early?

"Will you say it back?" I asked after a couple of minutes of us just staring at each other. Callum broke eye contact and stepped back.

It felt like an arrow was shot through my heart. My chest burned and water gathered in my eyes.

He didn't love me.

"Don't get me wrong Irene, I do really like you. I also care for you. But..." he stopped. "But what?" I asked, my voice breaking.

"I don't know if I love you yet" he said and I felt like the sky broke down on me. "You don't love me?" I asked, a single tear rolling down my cheek.

Callum immediately shook his head. I was confused now. "I said I didn't love you yet Irene. I never said it was impossible" he quickly said.

I felt like I could finally breath again. There's hope.

"I have just, never been loved before. And I don't know how it feels. I don't know how to figure out if I love you" he said.

I walked up to him and cupped his cheeks. "Do you need more time?" I asked and he nodded.

"Then take it. Take all the time you want Callum. But please come back to me. One day, please tell me you love me back. Because I can't live without you anymore" I said, full on crying now.

He gave me a small smile from between his tears and I saw the sparkle in his eyes returning.

I will make sure he knows I love him. And I will also make sure he loves me back.