Engaged to Andy Barber, and deeming him too safe, and only wanting to be intimate to get you pregnant, you start a sex only relationship with Ransom Drysdale. Nothing is ever easy, and you get yourself into a web of lies. Are you the only one lyin...
Summary: How much did Andy hurt Frank? Date with Curtis
Pairings: Curtis Everett X Reader
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Explicit language, mentions of Andy's sexual abuse to reader, mentions of Andy's physical/sexual abuse to Frank, 18+ ONLY
Word Count: 5.8k
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"How did things go on your date with Frank?" Bruce asks looking up over his notepad.
"It went surprisingly well," you stop speaking, bringing your eyes back to the floor.
"You're doing that thing again. You're averting your eyesight away. Why did you say surprisingly?"
You take a deep breath, pausing and think of the best way to describe it. "When it's just me and Frank, things flow. There's no arguments, there's just ease."
"Like when you were married."
"I was married to Andy. He played the part," he nods his head, writing a note with a smile. "I kept having to look away from him. It's weird sometimes. Calling him Frank, when everything flows like when he was Andy. My Andy, the favorite one. It really wasn't him though, you know? He was Frank, and now I have Frank in front of me."
"How does that make you feel?"
"Terrified. I know he's not Andy. I know he helped find me and all three girls. I know he was willing to die that day. But...he played that lie so well, he broke character a few times, and I know he wasn't lying about how he felt, it's just, he wasn't Andy. He was Frank. Now he is the real Frank. He's great. He's funny, he's sensitive, he's caring, he's sad, and it's my fault."
Dr. Banner stops to look at you, at how you're biting your lip, your eyes glossy with tears, and you look up at the ceiling. "Why is it your fault?"
"Because...I don't know if I can ever give him that piece of me again. I try to run through the scenario of what if Ransom wasn't in the picture. I want things to not be complicated with all of us, but they are. There's a part of me that loves Frank, a part of me that's discovering Frank for the first time, and a part of me that fears I can't be what either of them need. They're playing tug of war, and Frank is overly aggressive with his feelings. He knew who he fell for. I didn't so it's hard to put that wall down. Ransom I want to think is pushing me away to protect me and not because he has someone else, but it's like he's letting go of the rope, barely hanging on, and Frank is continuing to tug it."
"Would you want a relationship with Frank?"
"It's easy to say no when I think that Ransom is an option, but I just...I don't know. When everyone leaves after supper and I'm left alone to my thoughts I think about why I left Andy to be with Ransom. It wasn't ever supposed to be anything serious, but it was. I tried to fight it, tried to deny, but it was. I trusted him with a part of me that no one has ever had. I want that back. Sweet moments that are intimate with Ran are few and far between. But they did happen. When we would both let our guard down. Sex would start off desperate, and then one look into each other's eyes and it wasn't sex, it was allowing him...well into me. Physically yes, but also into my soul, my being."
