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The sky was too bright and too blue for a funeral
It wasn’t fair , it really wasn't fair
But then again, the sky had been blue on the day of his grandma's funeral, and jungkook was pretty sure the sky had been blue on his parents funeral too.
It only ever seemed to rain whenever jungkook revisited the gravestones, but now, as jungkook watched cars pull up away from the house, he realized with a throbbing,dull pain that it might be a while before he could revisit this particular grave.
With heavy heart he entered the Kim lake house
?:Hey
Jungkook turned around Jin stood behind him, his eyes watery and red. Without another word jungkook rested his forehead on jin's shoulder.
Jin:It’s been a long day, huh?
said quietly, rubbing his hand gently over jungkook’s back.
Jungkook: it is
Said while nodding his head
Jin: where is Haneul
Jungkook: she is sleeping , she will wake up when everyone comes back from there
Jin: why didn't you go
Jungkook stared at jin
Jungkook: I don't know , may be I will be not able to bid my last goodbye to her
Jin understood the meaning behind those words
He knew how much pain jungkook is feeling
Jin: Taehyung ? Where is he?
Jungkook pressed his lips together
Jungkook: I think he went to bedroom
Jin: by himself
Jungkook: no yoongi hyung was there with him
Jungkook: he must be heart broken
Jin: loosing your wife that's also on the day of your wedding anniversary it's quite Herat breaking thing
Jin saw jungkook's frown and asked
Jin: what happened
Jungkook: "will he be able to smile like before" "will I will be able to see myself living without her presence" "will haneul will be able to come out of this shock"
Jin: I don't know jungkook , but I don't think so everything will be back to the way it was so early
They heard bellring
Jin: I will see who is that
Jin opened the door and was met with taehyung's freinds who were looking sad and concerned
Jin: hey come inside
They all came inside the house
Bogum one of taehyung's asked
Bogum: where is taehyung
Jungkook: he is inside I will call him
Seon: ok
Jungkook moved towards taehyung's room he felt lump form in his throat
It used to be taehyung and Jiuen's room but now it was only taehyung's room
Despite the fact that jungkook had paced these hallways and floorboards of Taehyung’s house for nearly six years, the way to Taehyung's—Taehyung and Jiuen's room suddenly felt empty and unfamiliar, as though all of the air had been sucked out and raplaced with some cheap scent from pharmacy
He passed haneul in the living room. The girl was curled up on the couch, her knees brought up to her chest and her dark hair falling in her face. And even though haneul was going to enter fifth grade in the fall, she looked smaller than ever. Jungkook paused by the couch, watching haneul's bottom lip tremble against the couch cushions. Even in sleep, it seemed she knew what was going on around her.
Jungkook snuck around the couch and picked up one of the woven blankets at the foot of the seats.haneul didn’t stir even as jungkook laid the blanket over her; she curled deeper inwards, but jungkook took that as a sign that maybe she would just enter a new realm of sleep where she wouldn’t remember that her mother was truly, really gone.
After that he went towards perticular room
The door was slightly ajar when jungkook reached Taehyung’s room, but jungkook knocked anyways.
Jungkook: taehyung
When no immediate answer came, jungkook looked into the bedroom, and his heart sank. Taehyung was sitting at the foot of the bed, back ramrod straight. Eyes looking straight ahead at nothing and everything,
Jungkook knew. He knew because he had seen that same expression in his grandfather's face when his grandma had died, and jungkook knew he had been wearing the same expression when his parents died.How he had looked at the rooms around him and replayed images of how his parents had been walking around the house.
Jungkook:Hey
whispered, pushing open the door.
Taehyung lifted his head towards jungkook and for a minute, jungkook worried that Taehyung was seeing right through him, but then Taehyung rubbed his eyes and gave him a weary, halfhearted smile.
How Taehyung could even smile, jungkook wasn’t sure, but he took that as a somewhat good sign.
Jungkook: others will be back soon and haneul is sleeping your Freinds are here
Taehyung: don't want
Jungkook: hn?
Taehyung: don't want to see anyone now
Jungkook: ok I will say it to them
Taehyung: ok
Jungkook: ok
Jungkook waited for any further talk but got nothing he waited at door
Jungkook: may I come in inside
He thought he will get no as answer but taehyung nodded his head in yes
Jungkook felt himself move into the bedroom. He slowly lowered himself next to taehyung at the foot of the bed, and for a moment, the two sat together like that.They didn’t move, not even when jungkook heard the front door opening on the other end of the house.He heard the steady rhythm of footsteps, the distant murmurs of friends. When Taehyung didn’t standup, jungkook pushed himself off the bed. He felt taehyung’s eyes follow him as he pushed the bedroom door closed.
When jungkook turned around, Taehyung looked almost relieved, and jungkook could tell because his shouldersrelaxed just the slightest.
Taehyung:Probably should go out there jungkook sat down again.
Taehyung:Bad manners for to not show up
Jungkook: No one would blame you .
Taehyung: Jiuen would
Jungkook: not in billion years
Taehyung stared at him for second
Taehyung: Blame it or not it's my duty to talk to them
Jungkook: it's not , if you are not in mind of talking you shouldn't
Taehyung: ok then
Jungkook: where you waiting for me to say that
Taehyung gave an weak smile to jungkook
Taehyung: cought me
Jungkook : then I will go and give them this news
[All vocabulary and grammar credits goes to my one only sister who litterly made me write this part more then 4 times]
Jungkook went towards the door but before that he turned to taehyung
Jungkook: no need of acting like everything is fine taehyung ,me you and everyone knows it's not
Taehyung stared at jungkook till he left the room.
Jungkook went to living room and said what taehyung's said and being understanding Freinds they all agreed to meet him other day they bid bye and left the house
Jungkook's grandfather was watching everything
Jungmin: jungkook it's time to go back
Jungkook took a deep breath closed his eyes and thought something and opened his eyes
Jungkook: I think you should wait for me for little mare days grandpa
Jungmin nodded his head in understanding
Jungmin: I will leave take care of them and yourself
Jungkook: mn
Jin: any help call us ok
Jungkook: ok ,and yoongi hyung left as he had some urgent case
Jin: ok
They both hugged him and left .
And in few second the whole huse became silent and it's started to make jungkook feel suffocating.
Jungkook: I will miss you jieun
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