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Jungkook stared at his image in the mirror
Jungkook: pathetic, idiot, coward you are fucking disappointment jeon jungkook, you don't deserve happiness you don't deserve happiness , you are disappointment
If Jiuen was alive she would have hated you for oving her husband, loving your sister's husband it is sin
You are a sinner
He said to his own image
But it was not my fault that taehyung married my sister
IT'S NOT MY FUCKING FAULT THAT SHE FUCKING MARRIED THE MAN I LOVED
IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT THEY HAD CHILD NAMED HANEUL
IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT I CAN'T IMAGINE ANYONE HAS MY PARTNER LEAVING HIM
it's not it was never my fault
jungkook's heart was breaking he was feeling devastated
Jungkook; they are back , the voices are back
They are calling me pathetic , disgusting they are calling me burden and they are right I am pathetic I deserve to die
I deserve to die
I deserve to die
It's been long since I have been scarred , I need scars to make me remember that I should stop this things it helped me years ago and it's going to help me again
He searched whole cupboard and found an blade
A smile formed on his face seeing the blade
Jungkook: my old friend I have missed you so much
🚫Mention of self harm if you are uncomfortable ignore 🚫
Jungkook closed his eyes placed the blade on his wrist and made an deep cut , blood started to flow from it
He stared at the blood more tears made way through his eyes
Jungkook: it's not helping I can't forget him I can't
He threw the blade and again searched for something and found box of sleeping pills I need to sleep if I sleep I will forget him I need to sleep
He opened the box and took 3 pills in one go and drank water
Jungkook: now I will forget him I will forget him but wait he will not know that I forget him I need to tell him
He took the phone and called taehyung and after several rings the phone was picked
Taehyung: jungkook
Jungkook didn't speak
Taehyung: jungkook are you there
Jungkook still didn't say a word
Taehyung: jungkook haneul just slept why you called
Taehyung heard sniff from the other side he came out of haneul's room
Taehyung: jungkook are you crying
The sniff was turned into sobs
Taehyung felt more worried hearing heartwrenching sobs
Taehyung: bun
The sobs became even louder hearing the nickname
Taehyung: bun what happened are you ok
Jungkook: no
Taehyung:what happened
Jungkook: I get idea to forget you
Taehyung: what are you saying
Jungkook: I used my previous idea the idea which I used when my sister announced the whole world that you both are dating, I followed same idea which I followed when I heard about youe marriage
I followed the same idea which i followed when I heard about jiuen's pregnancy
Taehyung: jungkook you are scaring me what did you
Taehyung heard chuckle from other side
Jungkook: my bed sheets are turning red
Taehyung felt his heart stop hearing it
Taehyung: jungkook what did you do
Jungkook: is it supposed to feel like I am getting hit by iron rod on head when you take sleeping pills
Taehyung: Jungkook what did you do
Jungkook: I am feeling sleepy
Taehyung without any waste in time ran outside the mansion while asking maid to take care of haneul and sat in car drive towards jungkook's home
Rain was pouring heavily still he didn't care he was driving fastly
Taehyung: jungkook are you there
Jungkook: hyungie do not worry I will forget you , I will stop myself from loving you I always did I and his talks stopped
Taehyung JUNGKOOK, JUNGKOOK ARE YIU YOU LISTENING
Jeon Mansion was 30 min away from his mansion so he drive as fast as possible and when the mansion near he litterly ran out of car and banged the door
The main door was opened by John who stared taehyung with shock
John: master taehyung
Taehyung ignored him ran towards jungkook's room John called Jaemin
Taehyung reached jungkook's room and found the room locked he broke the door using every single energy present in his body and enters the room
Taehyung's world stopped when he saw jungkook who was on the bed while the bedsheet were bloody red without waiting he took jungkook in his arms and came down
Jaemin who saw his grandson got shocked
Jasmin: koo
Taehyung ignored him and placed jungkook in the backseat while Jaemin sat in driving seat
Taehyung: drive fastly
Taehyung: hey jungkook jungkook are you hearing me , jungkook open your eyes please, bun bun please open your eyes
He said while trying to wake up jungkook
Jaemin was driving the car fastly in 30 min they were in the hospital
Taehyung was sitting on the seats while jungkook was getting treated
Jaemin was sitting beside him
Taehyung stared at his bloody hand and tears started to flow from his eyes
He felt shivers run through his body just by thinking what if jungkook had decided not to call him , his heart was beating like crazy
Taehyung: he tried to
Jaemin: taehyung do not have panic attack please focus on breathing
Take air in and out breath for me taehyung breath
Taehyung: his blood he hurt himself he tried to kill himself I
Taehyung felt difficulty in breathing
Jaemin hurrily held his both hands and started to rub them
Jaemin: taehyung taehyung listen to me focus on my words , breath taebear breath , taehyung for me breath please
Breath for jungkook please for him
Jaemin noticed taehyung's expression changing
He let go of his hands
Taehyung: he did this before, he has done it everytime I had hurt him
He has been hurting himself from 10 years it's all because of me all because of me
Jaemin: it's not taehyung it was not because of you , it's just time we can't decide what's going to happen in our life.
Taehyung: his wrist it was bleeding upon that ge took sleeping pill .
I was scared grandpa I was scared
If anything happens to him I will kill myself
Jaemin: nothing will happen don't worry.
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