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(Before reading it please do read previous parts because I am updating it after 2 months you will not get that continuity so do read previous parts)
Taehyung patted taehyung's shoulder, said goodnight and left the balcony
Taehyung just sat there confused and messed up heating yoongi
Taehyung: evryone are asking me to love him but loving someone is not that that easy that also after loving someone before
Before I got to know about love I was bonded to Jiuen , from my childhood I was bought up by getting teased saying Jiuen and I are going to be couple and that what happened , that's why I had no problem in marrying her and first of all accepting her
I loved her, I still do or not I don't know,do I love jungkook I don't know , do I want jungkook in my life I don't know
Everyone accepts me to move on from Jiuen and get together with jungkook
But won't it will be considered as opportunist behaviour
sister died so he ended up marrying her brother that's what much people will think
Yes haneul is now happy but once she grows up , once she starts to understand the society and its ethics she will judge me
Now she wants to be with jungkook because he is giving her comfort,love and warmth but what about when she gets older .
And upon That it's not easy for me to love jungkook at one night decision
Yeah I have soft corner for jungkook I had and will have soft corner but love ! Love is big thing for me .
He sighed nth time he didn't know what to do ,he was cursing his whole life for being so messed up.
Author POV
Jungkook's headache has decreased and he felt little discomfort to sleep so he climbed down from the bed and went to the balcony located in his room
Everything was going smoothly and nice but he didn't know why he felt like something is wrong.
Suddenly taehyung started to act different, he asked him for dinner dates it was little no wait not little bit too much strange , jungkook didn't give it more importants before but after thinking while taking time and analysing taehyung's behaviour jungkook got into the end point that something is wrong with taehyung.
God knows that jungkook never wanted taehyung to love him out of nowhere, then why taehyung is showing these indications
As he go on thinking further all he can conclude is that taehyung is forcing himself to love jungkook which jungkook hated more then anything.
Yes jungkook wanted to taehyung to love him but not like this , he never wanted taehyung to love him forcefully .
He sat on the floor of balcony while staring at nothing but dark sky ,
Jungkook: I never wanted him to love me forcefully, why everyone are forcing him to love me
Did I ask them to do this ? No i didn't then why troubling him to love me , I don't need his forced love I don't need it
Arrrggh I hate this I fucking hate this , I thought everything was going to be okay but fuck this shit will never be okay never will be okay
A lone tear slipped from his eyes
Jungkook: all i can do sit and cry about it or try to hurt myself why I am like this , why I hurt everyone
I can't be here I don't want to be here ,I need to freshen up my mind I need to go away from me here .
I need to part ways I need to....
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