ARRANGE MARRIAGE | J.Jk

28: Wild emotions

'it's now or never'

JUNGKOOK POV-

My emotions are going wild, or perhaps my behaviour. I never thought it's difficult to read people, their behaviour always gives them away but not in y/n case.

She's like a puzzle no matter how I many times I give it a try I can't seem to solve it. Her words says something and her actions say something else.

Am I reading too much into this?

I can't seem to lift my eyes off my wife sleepy face as she huddles closer to me either for warmth or comfort. Whatever, I don't give flying fuck. I refuse to give any, anyway.

I sigh, brushing her cheekbone with my thumb as I wonder what's inside her head. I wonder if she's feeling what I'm feeling. I wonder if she still has problems with sleeping.

Tearing my eyes from her, I tighten my hold over her as I lean down slightly to whisper to my mom that we're going to room.

"Is she okay?" She asks, eyes looking at her briefly before looking at me for answer, little does she know I don't freakin know Myself but instead wave her off with a single fine.

Y/n doesn't make a single sound as I carry her and head straight to our room. I sigh out heavily remembering the last two nights. I glance at her face on my chest, how's she even sleeping with so much noise?

Kicking the door open, I put her on the bed and notice she's in her pajamas already. Good. I don't think I could make it through changing her clothes without losing my mind. I'm getting blue balls daily as it is.

Grabbing the neck of my shirt I pull it over my head and change into my nightwear before washing my face.

When I enter inside the bedroom again, y/n is clutching the sheets tightly to her  chest her face drawn in pain.

With long and hurried strides I get on my haunches and cupp her face pressing my lips on her forehead. "Shh. Breathe baby. You're okay, you're safe. You're with me" I drop my eyes to her face and wipe the sweat from her face gently with my hand before yanking down the blanket and setting aside on bed beside her. I unceasingly whisper soothing words against her ear hoping she could hear me somehow and relax. I brush my thumb over her pulse in her neck and gradually she relaxed with a small cry.

"Shh.." I rest my forehead on hers and before I can resist I brush my lips over hers lightly then, as if getting conscious...i jump away from her.

I run a hand through my locks, cursing at myself for doing something I shouldn't have. I wet my bottom lip, peeking at her anxiously, this woman is doing something with my mind. And I don't like it.

Rounding the bed, I gulp. I lay down stifly on my side of bed and rest my head on my forearm as I stare blankly at the ceilings.

I wake up with a startle, my eyes frantic as it searches the room for...?

I frown when my eyes land on the empty bedside on my left. Throwing the blanket From me I take the washroom lights off as well closet.

I check the time and see it's nearly dawn. Without meaning, I walk out the door and before I know I'm closing my eyes as I smell something cooking.