Stay With Me

Chapter - 18

Time : 08:30 pm

I am eating chocolate. So tasty but it has a touch of Jeremy's hand. So it has become more tasty. I finished my chocolate but I am keeping the pack. Because it's the 2nd gift I received from my love. The first gift was the portrait. I am planning to keep everything I receive from Jeremy. I take mom's phone. Messaging him.
Me : Thank you for the chocolate. It's so tasty.
Jeremy : Welcome. Thanks for the treat. 
Me : I didn’t give you a treat. You gave me. You paid the bill.
Jeremy : Ugh, can you please stop discussing the bill? It's okay.
Me : So it is your treat. I will give you a treat next time.
Jeremy : Okay okay. But you know what, we have made a mistake.
Me : A mistake?
Jeremy : Yeah, we didn’t click any pictures.
Me : Oh yeah, sorry I forgot. Actually I don’t have any personal phone. So I never had a desire to click every moment.
Jeremy : It's alright. I have my phone. We could take pictures.
Me : Maybe next time. 
Jeremy : Okay.
Me : You know, I kept the pack of the chocolate. 
Jeremy : Why?
Me : Because it's a gift from you. I can't keep the chocolate forever. So I kept the pack.
Jeremy : You are really a little girl. Just like a little girl who would keep the pack.
Me : Yeah :)
I wanted to give him hints that I like him and that's why I kept the pack of the chocolate he gave me. But he doesn't understand. 
Jeremy : Wanna meet again next week? I wanna give you my birthday treat.
Gosh, what's he saying? I thought it was only addictive for me to meet him. But now he is offering me. THAT'S AWESOME!
Me : Of course. Why not? I am checking my schedule and will let you know the time.
Jeremy : Okay :)
It's like the best day to me. I am so happy today. I've never been so happy.

[ After 1 week ]
We are planning to meet again. Yeah, it’s so addictive to me. And I think, if we meet very often, then it will be easy for me to confess. But nowadays I have different plans. I am planning not to tell him now. I will tell him when I will be more mature to be in a relationship and obviously I don’t wanna stay in a relationship for so long, I will marry. So it will be the perfect time to tell him when I will be in the university. Time will say everything. 
We met again. It's great. This time I brought some chocolates for him as his birthday present. But unfortunately I forgot to bring the portrait I had made of him. No worries, I will give it to him later. 
I don't know but I am being so impatient. I want to confess. But how? It isn’t that easy. I think about him all the time. My first ever love and I can't even tell him. Also I am thinking of some negative things. What if this love isn’t real, just a normal feeling of a certain period? Cause after all I am only sixteen and teenage love isn’t considered as true love. What if it's only a crush which will fade away after some days? I am having so much confusion but I know that a feeling inside me has grown for him and I want him. I know I am in love. But I can't share it with anyone because I am just a hormonal teenager.
Such a CRUEL world!